Asking is the Hardest Part

Asking for help is humbling indeed.  Pride takes over.  "I got this," regins supreme.  But I am learning that we all need help sometimes.   I should not feel bad or be ashamed. If we could do it all by ourselves, there wouldn't be billions of people coexisting in the world.

I have learned A LOT of things in this now 8 plus months of unemployment, some hard, others harder.  But learning to ask for help has got to be one of the hardest. I have learned how to live different.  I have learned how to be different.  Asking and accepting love from my support system has been THE thing that has carried us this far.  I am so so grateful  am loved.

I now have my biggest and hardest ask yet.  I am asking everyone and everyone in a very public forum.  Exposing my difficultinies and being vulnerable.  The biggest and hardest ask yet.  I need help.

Iam in a reset mode.  I have given up our old home, surreneured my car, and am working any opportunity that presents itself.  I am in full on Momma hustle mode.  We need a new place to live.  My biggest obsticle to establishing that peace for Ean and I is savings.  I am  asking for $4000 to pay a deposit and first months rent, which is needed to secure a new place for Us to live. Ean starts a new school on August 14th, so my goal is to have him settled in at a new home and registered in a new school before then.  Any addittional funds would be put to moving expenses and utility connections.

I have learned how to humble myself.  It been hard for Us, but it can always get harder.  I am super grateful for your love, your thoughts, and whatever assistance you can give.