Update 4.15.26
 
I am staying nights at a night shelter.

There's a day shelter that has 20 minute shower slots and you can do a load of laundry once a week. I try to shower every other day so someone else can get a spot on the long days.
 
I feel used for a psych op. I have been explaining that for years. One day everything will just click in I guess.
 
The future will figure this out - everything since 2020 - since 1989 - since long before....
 
If you are helping me unconditionally and with good intention, I appreciate it. I would do the same for you if I could.
 
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Thank you again infinity

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Update 2.5.2026 
 
I am unhoused. 

If I could get help staying at a hotel, that would be best. 
 
Otherwise I have to get a small storage space within distance of a shelter, showers, and somewhere to do laundry. 
 
It looks like storage will cost $60 a month for a small space. 
 
Gym membership $40 a month and a $60 annual fee. 
 
Don't know about laundry. I can hand wash a lot but there needs to be a place to dry it. 
 
This has felt like a cruel scam. 
 
I said it well here in a recent email: 
 
I can't emphasize enough how this never needed to happen, there should have been rent assistance, I should have gotten disability, I would have never been isolated if it wasn't for covid and my own medical history and then a war zone (that had nothing to do with black lives matter) that was played out on my street and then the harassment from neighbors in the years that followed. 
 
This whole situation is not my fault and is completely fucked up. 
 
Now it looks like $60 a month for storage, $40 for a shower (with a $60 annual fee to start), who knows about laundry, sleeping in a room full of strangers who might be sick, risk getting sick every fucking day, going to the library for safety, max tickets to get back to the storage/shelter area. I see myself being drained of all energy - and that's if nothing goes horrendously wrong. 
 
I need an advocate who sees the big picture here for what it is - I was practically trapped in my own home and then thrown outside. The city has mismanaged $40 million that would have covered rent and that I qualified to get. I don't understand how I could get rehoused or where or who to talk to about that. This was wrong. Anyone who hurt me on purpose is cursed. 
 
*this email is meant for intended recipient(s) only* 
 
universal human rights or everything is bullshit ✨️ 
 
may all your intentions return to you ✨️ 
 
intersectional solidarity ✨️ 
 
ciacab ✨️ 
 
for real love, 

L. 
 
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May all your intentions return to you 

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Written Testimony to Portland City Council 11.12.25 
 
I have been medically isolated in my low-income studio apartment since 2020. 
 
During the last five years people inside and outside of my building have taken advantage and terrorized me. 
 
The building was designed to give supportive services and I feel it has been sabotaged. Current management is trying again to evict me - despite being well aware of my situation and resident services being paid $50,000 a year to help keep people housed. 
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Do I need to tell my life story repeatedly to "earn" the right to exist? No. Human rights are not given nor revoked. They are inherent and inalienable. Forcing me to live through hell just to say this is also cruel and genocidal. This is the 21st century and we should all be able to live as long and as well as Jeanne Calment and Gregoris Tsahas: over the age of 100. 
 
I have no other home and nowhere else to go. Becoming unhoused after five years of isolation will likely kill me, if the unknown people who have been stalking me don't. Authorities assigned to my street seem to be participating. I have no one to call for help. It all feels like a scam - possibly to ruin Portland by having given me a deliberately bad experience. I'm not sure I ever really got to live here even though I moved here in 2012 and have lived in this apartment since 2015. 
 
I have written multiple times to everyone I can - federal, state, and local officials. 
 
I believe my internet communications have been sabotaged as well. I have streamed a peaceful protest every day and a website called twitch tracker shows that I had no activity recorded for most of the last year despite streaming every day. How else was I supposed to find an income or ask for donations or try to sell my art and music? 
 
I am surviving under duress and have become unable to physically function like I did before 2020. I have applied for disability assistance multiple times. I did not make the lottery for section 8. My PTSD has been made significantly worse by the people harassing me on a daily basis, doing things to be deliberately hurtful that were never such severe problems before - like gassing my unit with chemicals, banging on my walls and ceiling so hard it feels like being beaten up, or attacking the building with weaponized sound. 
 
I just found out yesterday that there was a measure [118] on the November 2024 ballot that would have given people a universal basic income. My neighbors inside the building have been trying to provoke me if I leave the unit and I have not been able to vote. That measure [118] or something like it could have easily saved my life if it had passed. I think individuals could stop carrying the burden of tax entirely and large corporations could easily pool corporate taxes into a compound interest account, the interest alone providing more than enough as it grows exponentially to pay for everyone's basic needs - even on a global scale. Money is not the problem. Flawed humans playing god are gatekeeping resources for their family, friends, favorites, and obedient followers. This is wrong. This has always been wrong. 
 
This is some form of social murder and it seems everything since 2020 has been part of a global human rights violation on a genocidal level. Universal human rights were established 77 years ago and I no longer trust anyone who claims to be on the side of progress or humanity who is not actively upholding and improving those 30 rights - which include housing, healthcare, education, food, clothes, the cultivation of one's personality, and even internet as it is the only place where we can establish and fulfill these rights for all people all the time. Please do not let people die for a convenient story. The truth doesn't change based on what you wanted it to say no matter who writes the history books. Intelligent people will always figure it out eventually, and if you won't let humanity evolve, what's the point? No one was born just to be a servant to anyone else. I refuse to fight, to beg, to die, or to be used. 
 
Universal human rights or everything is bullshit. ✨️ 
 
Laura L. Gamari 
 
In favor of stopping sweeps, stopping evictions into homelessness or positions of exploitation, stopping social murder and allocating money for upholding universal human rights and directly fulfilling human needs to allow people to live as independently as possible. Intersectional solidarity ✨️ 
 
11.12.2025 
 
11.11.25 update: 
 
They are trying to put me through eviction court next week. It is beyond bogus as I have been terrorized while in medical isolation since 2020. I cannot tell my whole story fast enough. Eviction will kill me. 
 
If you sent funds directly to management please tell me so I can confirm they did not steal the money. 
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I have been surviving isolated and under duress for five years. 
 
My body has deteriorated and I cannot function like I did before 2020. I have not been able to leave my building, and I haven't felt I can even leave my unit since 2024 due to escalating neighbor harassment. They bang on the walls and ceiling so hard it feels like I am being beaten up, my small studio apartment has been gassed by unknown chemicals - often making me feel sick or pass out. I have no where else to go, but I also refuse to be terrorized out of my only home. 
 
Management has been confusing and unreliable. They've changed hands three times since 2020 as well, with the main owners still being a human rights based organization whose mission was supposed to be to keep vulnerable people housed. This is low income housing. I should not have been under the threat of eviction the entire time I have lived here (since March 2015...in Portland since 2012). 
 
It is difficult for me to tell what is "helping me" and what is straight up corruption. 
 
There's so much but I am trying to be brief. You could read the updates for some details of things that have happened. 
 
Everything since 2020 has felt like some kind of holocaust. 
 
Every single day I live in protest for universal human rights and I hope people care where all the dissidents have gone. 
 
Your donations are all I have in the world and you should know you've been helping save me at least a little. It makes me feel like anyone cares whether I even live or die. It may not be enough to cover everything, but it has changed my life for the better every time someone can send me anything. 
 
I need financial support and a human rights advocate. 
 
If you can spare anything, or feel comfortable sharing this plea for help with your friends and networks, I deeply appreciate it. 
 
May all your intentions return to you ✨️ 
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