Please help me till some assistance can kick in

Hey y'all sorry I've been gone so long I just got out of the hospital I have to do radiation on my brain in the morning. So I have been diagnosed with terminal stage 4 triple B cancer. So that's just a way of saying that I have brain cancer, breast cancer, and bone cancer. So there is no cure I've been told the only thing I can do is keep getting treatments to prolong my life. So I guess I will do that as long as I can withstand it. I do depend on the support of my followers and supporters to help me with my treatments since I am currently not receiving any help financially. Since I am self-employed they go off the last 1099 or the last 12 months and I did rather well in the first 6-7 months of 2022 little did I know it would drain me a couple of months later. They are going to look at my income in about 5 more months to see if maybe I qualify for anything because they go off the last 12 months and since I got the diagnosis before I had the chance to get any insurance I can't seem to get qualified for any. So right now everything I have I am paying out of pocket. I wish I would have known this was coming like I said before I wouldn't have given away so much money to people and organizations if I would have known I needed it for myself. I'm glad I could help those in need I'm just upset with myself for not putting any back thinking it would always come in and that my followers would always support me. I know I have said this before but Etsy has completely taken me out of search which means you cannot find my shop unless you directly look for it they did this because I was behind on about 12 readings and they don't like to see that. Even though I'm still doing readings daily when I'm not getting treatment or radiation and I'm steadily working in my bed to get those readings done Etsy does not care. So the only thing I ask of you is please do not give up on me I am trying my hardest to keep my business running so I can keep my treatments coming. So please when you can, support my business, and if I am taking too long with your reading please let me know and I will put a rush on it for you. I wish I could just relax and figure this all out but I need to support my family the last thing I want is to be battling cancer and be homeless so I'm going to keep working as long as I'm able to I just ask that you please support me whenever you can and I will continue to give you the best reading I know how. Hopefully, this is not the end and I can continue to help guide you on your spiritual journey. Hopefully, they will approve me in March but until then I literally have nothing. People have asked if I have a go-fund me and to be honest, I am too embarrassed to ask for help and ashamed even though I know I helped so many for some reason I feel like I deserve it and I am lazy but the truth is I am sick and going through radiation and chemo and I am reaching out to companies for help with meds and I am doing all the things but that does not get approved overnight and in the meantime I have nothing. I buy groceries with the small amount I do get n Etsy and I was only able to buy 3 out of my 8 meds. I really do not want to ask for help but I am desperate and I can only hope that everything I have done for everyone can be returned in kindness and when I get back on my feet I promise to return that kindness+ to everyone that helped me and you know I will because I love helping others it is my mission here that I am hoping I can fulfill. Thank you so much for listening to my story and if you cannot help then please just send me some positive vibes. Super Hugs Tee