Operation Cyber Knife

Life! It happens! For some it's like a Christmas morning for a child running to the tree and seeing the pink bike with the basket with flowers on the front or opening a box and seeing the newest Jordans with a basketball to go with it. For some of us we run and all we see is the plain off white wall with the window with the broken blinds. We get to see everyone enjoying the things you want to do. From birth I was born a sick child with kidney problems. As the years went by I got stamped with more and more problems from abuse to neglect. I thought going to college would change them for me, it didn't. I was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes. This is where I died. My body was left in the mountains of Tn. And what left was misery. I developed neuropathy in my hands and feet. I can not feel anything in my feet. I have no balance so I constantly look like a slow moving drunk person. In my hands, it feels like a hundred wasps stinging me. This is the depression maker. I lost interest in the little things i loved doing like hiking and painting and playing the viola. I then developed the neuropathy in my stomach. Just imagine eating and your brain tells your digestive system your done digesting but your not. So you throw up food that has not been broken down. It feels like some one pulling a water hose out your mouth from your chest. PAIN!!. It seemed like the stamp of horrors would not stop. I was then diagnosed with congestive heart failure. At this point I'd had enough of life and it's tortures so I decided it was time to return to my body and end my life. I took 80 Aleve. And waited to go gently into that sweet night. Of course I failed just like my prior attempt. But because the hospital did not pump my stomach and the medicine took it's course, I began to experience kidney failure. I am 35 and I feel like I'm in the body of a 90 yr old. I think I have hit rock bottom with my body attacking itself and having a job that im lucky to get 20 hours a week. I'm also living in an enviroment that is less than ideal living with a tormentor that causes major stress, my luck gets even worse. YOU HAVE CANCER is uttered from the doctors mouth. I am 35 yes 35. Why me??? This comes to the reason for the Go Fund me. My insurance will only pay for 3/4 of the procedure that my doctor recommends. We had to appeal twice before getting the 3/4. They did no t want to cover anything. I have a tumor in the very upper abdomen area close to my heart. So because of my heart failure he doesn't recommend normal radiation because it may dammage surrounding tissue. He wants to do Cyber Knife which targets only the tumor. I am left with coming up with $24000 before they will start anything I am typically the giver in most situations. I do my best to go out of my way to help others. A lot of you can attest to that. I am now needing your help and support to keep my life. I may not have the ideal healthy body, but I am HERE and I want to remain here. Anything will be appreciated. Please spread the word and lend a hand. Thank you, AL