My mama, my angel

My mom was in and out of the hospital for most of December 2017 and all of January 2018. The doctors knew there was an infection in her lungs, but didn't know what it was. The doctors tested for every type of infection she could possibly have and everything came back negative. No one could figure out what the problem in her lungs was. She suffered and went through a lot of pain. Every breath she took hurt her immensely. She was put on life support, but her heart rate went up too much too fast. 

Every day my mom was in the hospital, my little sister, Milena, would ask me where mama was. I would tell her "she has germs in her tummy, but the doctors will make her better". But it broke my heart on Monday morning when the front door opened and Milena said "I think mama is back from the hospital". I had to tell her "No sweetie. The doctors couldn't make her better". My mom was with me everyday of my childhood. She took me to the park, to school, to play dates. She was at every piano and dance recital and every school concert. She would volunteer in my classroom and bring me lunch to school. She was my biggest supporter. She changed my diapers, fed me, and took me to the doctor when I was sick. She bought me every toy I ever wanted, took me to Disneyland and made my childhood beautiful. It absolutely breaks my heart and gives me an unbelievable amount of pain knowing that Milena won't have that with her mommy. My little princess won't have a mommy, but she'll have a big sister instead. A big sister that's going to give her the world. A big sister that puts her life on hold to care for her instead. A big sister to take her to pre school, take her to the park, make her heart shaped pancakes, and take her to Disneyland. It won't be the same without our mama, but Milena makes the darkest days a little bit brighter. She and Brian have been my guardian angels these past few weeks. Although my smiles won't be as bright and my heart will be in pain, I know I have to be stronger now more than ever and give my sister the best life I can.

Our dad and I are taking some time off from work to be together during this difficult time.  I'd like to properly honor my mom with a memorial and service, but money is especially tight. Any donation helps and is really appreciated.