My dream computer

I was skeptical of making an appeal but I have no other way to fulfill my wish. I live alone with my father and this desire is to have a computer, not only for gaming but also for studying and putting my taste in programming to practice.

I managed to take 1 course as a computer operator and I was taking 1 as a programmer but that's when everything fell apart, I started to have several anxiety attacks due to financial and personal problems, my parents separated and some time later my father lost his job and going to finish the programming course that I was enjoying so much became more and more complicated. 

At the same time I was also getting a driving license and I couldn't complete it, job opportunities were getting lower, i had no drivers licence had not a lot of experience and anxiety didnt help, couldnt be working on a place full of people, but still needed to work and help out my father, so meanwhile tried to save money for a computer i found a part time job which i work alone and it's perfect for my anxiety, but saving money was hard , in 1 year i managed to save around 100 euros which at this rate it will Be hard to acquire a computer.

At the moment one of my friends was kind in leading me his old xbox One in which i play with them, but it's getting to a point that it crashes and playing for long hours is not possible.

I appreciate the time you had to read. Thank you