Leta Coffee Bateman
13 hrs ·
The moment when you have received so much bad news, that when you get yet another call, with more bad news, you just roll your eyes and say...whatever! One person can only be so damn positive and quite frankly I'm so sick of smiling and pushing through, while just on the inside (not deep inside at all) I'm literally falling to pieces...and so are my boys. It's my body and their heart! I believe in miracles, I believe in God, I believe in the power of prayer, but WHY!? Four years ago all I wanted to do was see Tristan graduate and enter into manhood. (Obviously that happened and I am so thankful) Today I would like to be around to see him marry and give us some grand children (eventually), maybe take a real vacation or even own my own home...too much to ask for?? I don't think so. I'm sure most of you assume you will be around for these milestones. As for me, not so sure...
CT/Biopsy results: Several new nodules on lungs coupled with the ones that were already there increasing in size and new spots on Uterus that have been confirmed to be cancer. Oncologist ran several tests to see if my tumors would be compatible with a new immunotherapy drug but guess what...not compatible...Are you shocked? Cause I'm not! Story of my life. A Pet scan is being ordered coupled with more tests so we can figure out some kind of treatment plan.
A part of me just wants to say screw it, place myself and my family somewhere off the grid and live off of the land ;) A land where you do NOT put poison in your body to extend your life!