Kip My Father, my Friend, my heart!

This is a true story about a curious little girl and her loving father! For those who don’t know us, my name is Bianca and this has to be the toughest year for me along with 2016. It feels like I’ve been taken back to that year when I first lost my lil girl that feeling doesn’t go away and I feel like I’m back where I was with the emotional turmoil I went through. The handsome man in the photo above is Kip, and he is my dad. As a little girl growing up in a single parent home with my siblings it was just us, and I remember my mom working three jobs to take care of her 3 kids. I always used to wonder about my dad, I would think of him as a king and When we’d meet I’d be his “princess”. I mean my thoughts of him was countless, I was very curious about him and yearn for the day I’ll finally get to see who I really look like. Although I don’t remember much of him in my youth, I remember the first day we reunited and it stands out in my head like no other time! It’s very vivid and I’ll never forget it. When we got together it was a time! He was the friend that would stick by my side through all things, with no judgement. Always taking my side no matter what.. I could never do any wrong in his eyes, even if it was towards him. Isn’t that ironic? That was something as a kid I always wanted, and God allowed me to have 18 years with him. I got to experience the princess treatment, being told I’m beautiful every time I picked up the phone! No matter if my hair was messy and I looked like I rolled from under a rock, He STILL told me I was beautiful! He poured so much energy, enthusiasm and love into me during those times we had and although it was only 18 years it felt like a life time with him. I’m so very grateful for having these moments to laugh and smile about because this is a very trying time for me. Let me tell you it’s been hard. Since the last day I talked to him, up until the day I found him it has been like a bad dream. I just want to wake up and this be all over with. Instead I’ve been waking up back to the reality that our last conversation December 20 was it for now! As children you never know why your parents did what they did and why they decisions they made don’t add up but I’ve learn that we can’t ask why, all I can do is the best I can with what I have! And that brings us to this point in my story, I’ve always been the type to make a way for myself with the help I received from my Heavenly Father! I don’t even know how to fix my mouth to ask for something from someone without having the day of which I’m paying my loan back to them. Because I never wanted anyone to feel as though I couldn’t make a way in my own, so just making this go fund me is a big deal for me. I’ve been a go getter since birth my mother taught me that and when I met my dad it showed me why I was the way I am today! I’m grateful for both of them, I truly learned a lot about myself and see myself a lot in both of them. Talk about genes. That’s an understatement! I’m every bit of Suzette and Kip! That’s for sure. But one thing I wish, is that my dad would have allowed me to take care of this important matter years ago I tried and wasn’t successful, not sure why but that’s why we are here today! I said all of that to say this, I can’t do this alone. And I understand how other people feel when they have a loved one they’ve lost and no way to bury them. This is too much to bear for anyone. But the God I serve teaches me that I’m not alone and HE wouldn’t allow these trails if I wasn’t fit to get through them. He is a merciful God and HE desires all humankind to live forever and gain everlasting life. And I’m a firm believer that, I will see my Father and my baby girl again! But for now as I go through this, there’s a way I’d like to see him through and that’s by taking care of his earthly body and giving others a piece of my dad. I’d like to have services for him something very nice without overdoing it. Maybe a balloon release after the funeral services and a gathering for his family, that I never really got a chance to know growing up. I feel like I’d want the same for any of my loved ones. With my Fathers help and His Son Christ Jesus they will make a way outta no way! If this post reaches you and it reaches your heart, and if it’s in your power to assist let the spirit lead the way! I’m grateful for you just hearing me out, I’m very grateful for your prayers, condolences, and the compassion you’ve shown whether it’s through donation or a phone call, a text, or message! Thank you from the deepest deep of my heart and may God grant you the peace and strength you need to get through this temporary world. We have a hope and I’m not giving up until I gain that reward that He promised! And that’s the day I’ll reunite with my dad and my daughter for eternity! What a wonderful time that will be! Thank you all for your time you took to read my love story, and I love you! thank you for loving me and the ones I love so dearly!

Sincerely Yours,

Bianca B.

ps instead of princess he called me pumpkin and I still felt like his princess!