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Hello everyone, I dont know how to exactly write or say how I'm feeling right now. I am going through Breast Cancer. I found out February 2018. I knew something was wrong but not Breast Cancer. If anything, I thought it was my fibroids or cysts coming back like the always do. No insurance at the time so I had to wait it out. FINALLY, I got some insurance Yesssssss.
Then I found out I was at stage 3. So I did chemotherapy, 4 months of nausea, fatigue, weakness, lose of appetite, even went down to a size 0. A size 0!!!!WTF! I weighed in at 98 pounds, which is small, even for someone my size. It's like I'm in 4th grade again. It has been scary, and I've lost my sense of self to a certain point. What a mental game this is. I am so scared and tired, but I had to keep working on me and physically work at my job. The people who knew kept me smiling and nurtured me (Thank you). So now I'm getting ready to have a double mastectomy, which sucks. 6 weeks after that, I start radiation. I'm terrified about radiation. Then return for another surgery. I am so tired. It feels like when I think I'm close to the end, I'm not even close. I have been saving money. But these medical bills don't stop. I won't be able to work for at least 4 to 6 months.
Unfortunately, I am not eligible for Short Term Disability Benefits. ( It does not exist in Florida). So here I am , needing to start a Go Fund Me. There is no way I will be able to continue working while in recovery. I need help, and I so did not want to ask for help. If you guys know me i have a baby pride issue. I need help My People. I won't be able to focus with these freaking Bill's hovering over me. I just need time to breathe, relax, reflect and release. I appreciate anything given. It doesn't matter to me. I grew up with " Something is better than Nothing ". I am ready to move on from this Cancer.
I hope you all are doing well . Laughing because you know I love a good fucking laugh(at my expense sometimes)!!!! You know this. Take care of yourselves, your mind, body , soul and heart.
Thank you so much
Love. Dian
Then I found out I was at stage 3. So I did chemotherapy, 4 months of nausea, fatigue, weakness, lose of appetite, even went down to a size 0. A size 0!!!!WTF! I weighed in at 98 pounds, which is small, even for someone my size. It's like I'm in 4th grade again. It has been scary, and I've lost my sense of self to a certain point. What a mental game this is. I am so scared and tired, but I had to keep working on me and physically work at my job. The people who knew kept me smiling and nurtured me (Thank you). So now I'm getting ready to have a double mastectomy, which sucks. 6 weeks after that, I start radiation. I'm terrified about radiation. Then return for another surgery. I am so tired. It feels like when I think I'm close to the end, I'm not even close. I have been saving money. But these medical bills don't stop. I won't be able to work for at least 4 to 6 months.
Unfortunately, I am not eligible for Short Term Disability Benefits. ( It does not exist in Florida). So here I am , needing to start a Go Fund Me. There is no way I will be able to continue working while in recovery. I need help, and I so did not want to ask for help. If you guys know me i have a baby pride issue. I need help My People. I won't be able to focus with these freaking Bill's hovering over me. I just need time to breathe, relax, reflect and release. I appreciate anything given. It doesn't matter to me. I grew up with " Something is better than Nothing ". I am ready to move on from this Cancer.
I hope you all are doing well . Laughing because you know I love a good fucking laugh(at my expense sometimes)!!!! You know this. Take care of yourselves, your mind, body , soul and heart.
Thank you so much
Love. Dian
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Dian Berockinsteady
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West Palm Beach, FL
