Julia Underhile's Funeral Expenses

Our Julia was an exceptional young woman, she was only 19 years old & so mature for only a teen girl. She was Beautiful on the inside as well as her outer Beauty. She had so many plans/goals for her life, & being diagnosed with severe aplastic anemia, on November 4th 2016 was heartbreaking for her as well as her family..Julia has always been driven, she was ready to beat her illness, & move on with her life. Which would have been, becoming a teacher, & also becoming, Mrs. Julia Bennett..She wanted a humble close family wedding, where her Father Joshua Foltz walked her down the Isle, I would have been her maid of honor, her bigger sisters as brides maids & her bigger brothers as groomsmen, her youngest brother as ring bearer & little sisters & niece's as flower girls, which was not completely traditional, but Julia didn't want to leave anyone out..She wanted to have 2 to 4 children with her soon to be husband Bryan, or adopt children, should she not be able to have them, because children were the light in her life!! We were told her disease was 100% treatable, she had bone marrow matches, her sisters cord blood & atg to turn to..It took many months to line everything up, but we were ready to finally start treatment when she became very ill with bacterial pneumonia, the specialist told us she was finally well enough to go home on September 30th 2017, she would still need antibiotics and an oxygen tank as needed, but was supposed to be almost well enough to go to Saint Louis for treatment..Suddenly she spiked a fever, the doctors didn't act very concerned, it would mean a possible week more in the hospital, she was disappointed but we passed the time each evening with talking & watching movies..On October 3rd, I noticed her behavior was very different, she was overly sleepy but the nurses said it was due to new medication, that evening she had said "It seems like every time you are here, the time goes by so fast" I told her I would come back the next night and I would help her bathe, as she was weak and couldn't do it herself..I came back on October 4th, washed her hair, bathed & dressed her frail body, listening to her speak, but I had this inner fear that wouldn't go away, a horrible feeling that this didn't feel right...I didn't leave her side until I had to at 5am, to go home to care for our little ones, so dad could go to work..I told her I loved her several times, but had I only known I would never hear my baby girl's voice again, I would have found some way to stay with her...Her fiance Bryan had went up to see her at 630 that evening, on October 4th 2017 he called me after being there for an hour to say she was acting very unusual. I told him to inform her nurse & then I called them. They didn't seem overly concerned, saying she was just very tired.. At 10:30pm as I was on my way up to just drop off some items Julia needed so I could allow her time with her fiance, I got a very scared frantic call from Bryan saying "CRYSTAL GET HERE NOW SHE STOPPED BREATHING" MY HEART STOPPED!! I drove so fast to get to her 20 minutes away, I made it in time to the icu to hold my babies hand, kiss her forehead & tell her I loved her & needed her to stay, to fight, but after 4 times of her heart stopping & bringing her back, I watched my Beautiful Sweet Baby Girl, Slip Away...I don't know how to move forward or how to let go, the pain this is causing for me & my family is more than I can even handle..We have seen so much pain & suffering just in the last 2 years, My Brother in law passed from lymphoma, after losing an 8 month battle with an aggressive form of it, called tcell..We had to place our severely mentally disabled autistic adult daughter into a group home, because we couldn't afford the help she needed & were losing our home, from my fiance caring for his brother & missing so much work..Our 3 year old daughter was just diagnosed in July with type 1 insulin dependant diabetes & almost lost her life, due to very high ketones, she was hospitalized in the pediatric icu for a week.. She & Julia were as close as a mother & daughter, rather than sisters..Julia even moved back in so I could take care of her & so she could be there to be emotionally supportive of little Becki...Julia has 11 siblings, 2 half siblings, and 9 siblings all carried by me. .Julia was a very unique young lady, and for her older siblings, they turned to her for guidance...For her younger siblings, her motherering  nature took over and she created special bonds with all of them, our little ones are broken hearted without her, losing her was like losing a parent for them, because of the close bonds she had with them...Julia cannot be described with simple words, she was an Earthly Angel, always loving, guiding, caring, self sacrificing her own feelings & needs for others..I Pray to God Every Day for guidance to carry us through this, I Pray for more work to come into our shop so we can provide for these little ones, her siblings..We have 5 little ones at home, an autistic 9 year old daughter, 7 year old son, 3 year old daughter with type 1 severe insulin dependant diabetes, and a 1 year old and 6 month old baby girls...It is very hard to make ends meet, we wish that we had the funds to cover these expenses and didn't have to ask for help. We  just want her to have a beautiful church service and celebration of life after her funeral, as well as finding justice from the hospital who stole her life away...       Julia was not just my 19 year old daughter, She was my Very Best Friend, she loved me unconditionally..I Miss Her Beautiful Soul & I am so lost without her presence...From the moment she was born & placed in my arms, she was the bright light that made this world bearable, to the moment she was torn from my arms as she left, the bright light she brought left with her & this world became darker without her...We don't ever ask for anything, but Julia so deserves a Beautiful Service, if you could please help in any way, it will be a Huge Blessing!! We are also sending out memorial bracelets, to whoever donates, anything helps, Thank You & God Bless You All!!! Rest Peacefully Sweet Baby Girl. (1/9/1998 to 10/5/2017)