Help with court cost

After loseing my son colton I took it hard dealing with his passing I got on meth ended up having cps case my case has been closed 5 months ive been clean over an year passed drug test did na classes and everything my kids farther is keeping them from me . He has served me with papers trying to take my rights away ive been working I have my own house ive been clean over a year needing help with money for a lawyer I will post my court date when i get it in a mother who just wants her kids back.