Domestic Violence Relocation

So a little background about me. I used to be outgoing, independent, strong willed had lots of friends, loved interacting with people (being from the south we tend to be friendly) smiled a lot and I work in healthcare and have for 21 years, I have always been known as the caretaker.  After getting divorced I met "the perfect gentleman" he said and did ALL the "right" things. He had me hook, line and sinker. However once he figured out we were at "relationship" level things started to change.  I couldn't wear certain clothes, I couldn't meet friends for drinks after work, I couldn't have friends to the house for dinners. Slowly I started losing friends and before long I stopped even leaving my house. Then the verbal abuse, emotional abuse and occasional physical abuse. Over the last 4-5 years the abuse is almost daily whether its verbal or physical. He is the textbook definition of narcissist. I started standing up for myself and calling him out on his behavior and as expected I'm told that I am the one with the problem and I'm the narcissist; anything to deflect from addressing the real problems. I did leave once and moved out of state but fell for the "I'll change", I know I need to work on things, I need you etc...So I returned to the EXACT behavior if not worse. There were even a couple of trips to the ER. In June I attempted suicide and after leaving the hospital I was doing self harm. My doctors have all said I need to leave him and I've tried saving the money I need to pack my belongings and leave permanently and each time I do some kind of issue happens were that money is needed and I am back to square one. I have become afraid to sleep for fear of his temper and what he could or may do. My children want me away from him and to start over and they don't like that they are unable to help with costs. I have been trying to do this on my own but people that truly care for my safety and wellbeing have suggested numerous times for me to start a go fund me page, so this is what I am doing. I know the $3,000 that I am hoping to raise will only last for a short period of time but it will at least allow me to pack my belongings, move away, change all of my contact information and started over for at least a month without worrying about how I am going to make my car payment or phone bill until I find a job.  The sooner I reach this goal the sooner I can start to rebuild my life.  Asking for help is something that is very hard for me to do but I know at this point I have to humble myself and ask and I would love to get my smile back since I don't seem to do that much anymore if at all.  So anything anyone can help with I will forever be grateful for. Thank you for at least taking the time to read this.