I'm a single, permanently disabled mama (I know a lot of the people reading this will be friends or acquaintances who may not know that about me or do and have questions. It is quite personal but if me explaining or answering questions about that part of my life is what I need to do to get help, then so be it) to a fantastic 10 yr. old daughter. I'm here, for her really. I have raised her and everything that entails, almost completely on my own her whole life (yes of course with the help of others during hard times, like anyone else). I've kept a roof over her head & given her everything she needs without the help of things like a roommate of any kind. We've only lived in 2 places throughout her life, the present 1 we were going on 7 yrs. So she's had a very stable life with and because of me. For those reasons and many others, having to do this, asking for help like this, is, 100 times more than just extremely hard for someone like me. So please know that I do not take this lightly at all.
A couple weeks ago my landlord told me he had sold our duplex and that the new owner decided he's going to live in our unit since it is nicer than the other unit. Even though I've never missed a rent payment, never even been late ANYWHERE that I've lived or had any complaints & was even told we were the best tenants they've had, he still handed me a paper telling me that I had 2 wks to get out. Then was given 30 days because I know my rights and informed him of such. Another talk happened where I worked it to get until Dec 5th. It's now Nov 20th yet we still do not have a place to live nor even enough $ saved to get one. As I stated, I am on permanent disability (NOT ALLOWED TO WORK STATUS, I AM doing some things that are new in the medical field that may HOPEFULLY change this, but that doesn't help my situation now) and only get around $1000 a month plus a very small child support check that rarely comes at all and never on time so I can't even use that as income. I have us on every government housing help list there is, on every non-government apartment waiting list, have called all the low-income resources that I have and 211 has given me, We are on every homeless shelters list (LONG lists, sad),I'm online 1st thing every morning hunting trying to be the 1st to catch a deal I can afford, we are trying sell everything we can that'll make us some $ but all to no avail. Because I'm such low income, even when I find places I can afford monthly I can't take them because they all want 1st, last and deposit. My regular credit is everything a property owner runs from, but my rental history and my grandma willing to co-sign, and then having all the move in $ right then and there while filling out the apps..only chances I have. I have a little saved that is going fast from all the $35-$50 application fees, gas to and from the properties, plus next months pay is going towards it, obviously, which means there's no Christmas this year either(my generous daughter told me that she doesn't even want anything for Christmas just a home, but reluctantly admitted the only thing she is going to ask Santa for is to be able to stay in her school when we do move (Obviously, couldn't make that promise). Which is new to her this year. Yet next months check comes too late & is nowhere near enough. I will need movers and a moving truck as well because I don't have people that can/will help with that. I'll, of course, do as much as I can but literally just had surgery on my head, neck and spine & have yet to find the time to recover from that. The rents out there are insane. I've even been hunting for 1 bedrooms even though my daughter is supposed to have her own room (family court nonsense), but I'm willing to sleep on my couch and keep my stuff in a storage unit, that yet again, I'll need to get especially with a 1 bedroom. Anyway, even the 1 bedrooms prices are insane. Yes, some I can afford, but can't get into any without the $. SO, HERE I AM! Everybody is always telling me I need to learn to ask for and accept help. Well, this is the most insanely humbling (& degrading) way, to me, to do so. I had no clue how much to ask for, so I just added a little bit of $ to the amount of rent I've been searching for, multiplied it by 3 (1st,last and deposit) and added a little for movers because I don't have a clue when any of this is going to happen and how much of the little bit I get and have saved will be gone from applications, skeavy motels until a shelter opens, gas to get her to and from school and so on. I jusr estimated the best I could with not knowing what on earth comes next. I'm desperate (those of you that know me HAVE TO know I'd NEVER be here if I weren't), I'm scared, quite alone in all this, I need you & I'M SORRY!
THANK YOU SO MUCH just for taking the time to even read this!
To those of you that do know me, PLEASE be kind! I like a good story or joke as much as anybody else, I just don't enjoy being the butt of them. There's no need to judge me or degraded me. Trust me, there's nothing negative you can say to or about me that hasn't already been said by others and thought by me.
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