AN UPDATE: First, I have to any how unbelievable grateful for every single person who donated, liked and shared my family's gofundme story. We have been so humbled by the generosity of all of you. Second.. because this is getting more attention than I ever could've imagined, I wanted to take the opportunity to share an update and ask a favor of you that will wrap up this post. My family and I have been going through the hardest few years of our lives. March 2017 we found out we were unexpectedly expecting our third child. Completely devastated (yes, devastated, I fell into a deep depression. After experiencing the horrific and traumatizing birth of our second baby we were not wanting any more kids. Trying to prepare when we were already struggling financially was impossible. We were living with my mom which created stress by itself but she was kind enough to let us move in when we had no where to go, so we all did the best to manage. She found a job mid summer across the mountains in Eastern Wa and we had a week to get her moved BY OURSELVES, and somehow we got it done. Trying to now handle an increase in bills and still prepare for a baby is not doable. We were constantly behind because before finding out we were pregnant my husband had missed a month of work from an unexpected surgery before that and we could never catch up. Right before our daughter is born my husbands best friend an coworker had a stroke and was in a coma for over 3 months. While he was in the hospital my husband and I spent our spare time running back and forth from St. Peter's Hospital and our house, 45 minutes away and taking care of their house and animals for them while his wife stayed by his side. Every single day/night. Our daughter is born November 15th and suddenly our world made sense again. Our beautiful, healthy, Lynnley Marie swooped in and stole our hearts. She was the most precious piece to complete our beautiful family. November 26th came and I thought my world had ended, I lost my beloved aunt to suicide. My Deda, my most amazing, charismatic, sarcastic, smartass, beautiful aunt in the whole wide world couldn't handle her pain any longer and thought the world was better without her; it is not . I fell into the darkest pit of my entire life. I relapsed into anorexia and lost so much weight I could no longer hide how sick I was from those who were closest to me. I was having major episodes of severe anxiety, PTSD, and intrusive daily suicidal thoughts of my own. My husband had missed so much work by the month of April, and we couldn't give them an estimated return date so they had to let him go. We couldn't provide them with the answer because I had already been trying to get into my therapist but having to jump through so many hoops from insurance for over 2 months when one night came and I told my husband I had basically planned my suicide and he told me he was not leaving me alone. Yes I'm aware I am being very detailed.. but I feel the need to be 100% honest about the situation. I finally get in to see my therapist and she tells me what I already knew but was so against, I needed to go to residential treatment for my eating disorder. My brain was so starved I literally could not handle day to day responsibilities. Even though I didnt want to go deep down I knew it was exaclty what I needed, now to try and figure out how to pull it off, and jump through some more hoops from insurance for another 2 months until I finally get admitted to residential treatment in Bellevue Washington, 2 hours away from my husband and our 3 kids. I am still here, typing this now and while I have been gone we have been scrambling around trying to stay on top of bills and not lose our truck or house while I am here. We have applied for everything under the sun and are barely making it by because we don't get much. We understand that almost everyone reading this is most likely in the same boat just different circumstances which is why we want to reiterate how grateful we really are. This brings me to my favor, I want to use this opportunity to bring awareness to mental health and how important mental health really is. I want to bring awareness to suicide and suicide prevention as well as Anorexia and all other eating disorders. Why? BECAUSE THIS IS REAL LIFE. THESE ARE THINGS THAT SO MANY PEOPLE ARE AFRAID TO TALK ABOUT BECAUSE OF THE STIGMA ATTACHED TO IT. If you, or you think ANYONE you know might be suffering in any way please reach out to them. Let them know they are not alone. Help them reach out to their healthcare professional and if they're scared offer to go with them. Do not brush it off as unimportant or not as a serious matter because IT IS. Too many people suffer in silence and it is so sad and hurts my heart so deeply. If you are not comfortable with what I suggested than I will ask you this now, please share to let them that I see them, I know they're out there and I want them to know they're not alone. Please share the following information because it is my biggest wish to help others in the only way I know how, by sharing my own story. In memory of my beloved aunt Trena Krause and beautiful soul Bailey Garrison. National Suicide Prevention Hotline: 1 [phone redacted]
Think you might have an eating disorder? You are important too.
National Eating Disorders Association Helpline: 1-800-931-2237 Please, like and share. It might help someone you know.
I HATE that I have started one of these but my family and I are going through the hardest thing we've ever gone through and its hitting us so hard financially we are running out of options. We need a little help to keep a roof over our children's heads while I am in treatment for an eating disorder along with other multiple diagnosis I am struggling with. My husband was let go of his job and is home with our 3 babies while I am fighting to get better. We aren't asking for much, just enough to get us through these next couple months and if anyone was able to help, we would be forever thankful. I appreciate all the love and concern from all of my followers from the bottom of my heart. I will continuously post updates for those who are following our journey through this trying time and I just want to say thank you all again for the messages and comments, you have no idea how much those thoughts and prayers mean to us ❤