I hate even asking this, but I’m so overwhelmed I feel like I don’t have much left in me. My story is full of things I don’t know if putting on here is appropriate. Lots of abuse, but it’s not the end of the world. I got out of it, and now I’m with the love of my life. He has a remarkably rare story, in and out of jail for 20 years, and he’s going on 5 years sober, but life is not fair to him because of his past.

We have 6 kids: 4 are his, 1 is mine, and our youngest son together. He is named after his brother who passed away and my father who passed away. Since I got pregnant, I was put on disability, and we lost our house. I’m now in over 40 thousand in debt. We literally have God on our side, and we are trying, but since August 2024, we lost Paw Paw, cousin Richard, and in April, we lost his mom and the mom that raised me.

I need help, and I don’t know how to do it anymore. Nothing is ever enough to make it. I just want to breathe again, and I fear that my anxiety is going to hurt me if I don’t figure it out. I had a TIA at 32, and the reason they can come up with is stress. Please ask for details, and I will explain further, but I am fighting to even write this. Thank you, and anything helps.