If you know me, then you're probably well aware that I've been struggling with drugs for longer than when we met each other.
If you know me, then you're well aware of my stubborn and hard head. That being said, I have finally decided to bite my tongue and ask for help.
I have truly experienced what living in hell feels like. If you are reading this, you have probably decided to love me from a distance- as you know being around me is truly toxic and almost impossible to watch.
￼(An abscess from February 2019 that was lanced after a near death experience from almost getting sepsis. )
I am severely addicted to black tar heroin. It has completely taken over my ability to live life as a human being.
If you know me, then you also know that I have been to rehab multiple times resulting in nothing but chronic relapse.
What's different about now than previous rehab stints?
I have never been so physically ill and have 100% never been closer to rock bottom than now. Everytime I put a syringe in my arm, I hope I never wake up. I don't weigh out how much dope I am putting cooking up to shoot into my veins. I purposely put more heroin into my cooker, hoping I will overdose.
Help me get to a detox asap and get to a long term intensive inpatient treatment so I can experience what life has to offer .