It all started when I was about 9 or 10 years old, when I got my period. I saw my legs getting bigger and I wasn’t eating more than usual. I got teased everyday at school, came home crying because they called me fat. My self asteem went crashing down and until today, never completely came back.
When I went to highschool, I wanted to lose weight, and work out even more. The summer before, I had started rowing, which I loved. The only problem was wearing the shorts in the boat and when walking around. My legs were big and I felt horrible. When I was 14 I started serious competition rowing, with a specific diet and training 6x a week. I got abs, my arms were tone, I was super fit. But my legs remained the same..
I couldn’t wear the normal competition outfit, because my upper body was tiny and my lower body was blubbery. The shorts made a crease in my fatty legs and I felt ashamed.
Every year I said to myself that I was going to eat less, work out even more, work harder to get toned legs. At a certain point I got demotevated and gained some weight because of a lot of different things. But I wasn’t having that, so decided to lose it all again. So I did, in a year I lost 30 kg. But I never could get under the 75 kilo’s. No matter if I just ate 5 crackers on a day, workout out, used fat burner pills, or any other option.
I started going to a psychologist, just to set everything straight in my head, and I still row. I eat healthy, but my legs remained the same. I could squat quite heavy, had good stamina and live healthy. Then a doctor told me I had lipodema. Which means that my body can’t regulate the fluid and fat in a normal and even way and it just clomps together in my legs. (see pictures). I can get rid of it by operation, and finally start a normal life. It just costs a lot of money, and being a teacher in special education, I don’t make enough to just pay fort he operation.. Please help me to row and live without the pain and suffering from my legs, please.