Help me start my business to pay my bills

Hi,

I started this Gofund me because I need help to start my business and be able to pay my rent and bills. 

This is something that will help me long term, as I would be able to start my own business and that's all I need to become stable and be able to pay everything on my own, without having to ask anyone. 
My mental health is becoming so much worse, at some point I couldn't even get out of my own house. I don't have any family I can trust, at this point I only have my mom and my brother but they are probably some of the worst people I've seen. 
I've tried to commit suicide twice, and the second time I had to stay in the hospital for a couple of nights. Couldn't even close my eyes properly, or even walk so imagine. It was horrible and yes, I do regret it. But living in that house was killing me and I couldn't stand it. I also have a tendency to self-harm when I get really sad or angry, I always feel like it's useless being alive but god, should I really be thinking this? NO. And now that I am aware of that, I need to do something about it. We all deserve better.

Still love my mom even though I suffered a lot while at home, but apparently I can't talk to her now. My brother is always threatening me for stuff that I never, EVER, did. But I know I can move on with my life and do something nice with it, I can't end up like him - at home, bullying people and being mean to me and my mom who always did everything for him.

I'm hoping to get started as soon as possible so I can be stable and move on with my life.
If you decide to help, thank you so much for your support. Honestly, without your help I feel like I'm lost at this point.
And if you decide not to help, that's okay too! Thank you for at least being here!