For around 12-13 years I've been removed from functional life because of severe depression and fatigue syndrome. Many attempts to get psychiatric help failed and for a long time I had given up. But a couple of years ago, with help from a close and caring friend, I managed to reestablish contact with the psychiatry and taken seriously. After long examination and diagnostication, and over a year in waiting for an available therapist, my process of recovery finally begun.
For a few months now I have been recovering to the point where I am able to handle all the basic stuff at home, get out of my apartment, see a few friends regularly and begin the more in depth and thourough part of my therapy. One of the most important steps in this, for success to be probable, is to complement psychiatric therapy and medical treatment with physical activity. The more the better, within limits of my capabilities.
My capabilities are mostly limited to what I am able to motivate myself to actually regularly do. Avoidance behaviour, procrastination, and purely giving up, are very real risks in anything I undertake that is more demanding than getting out of bed. So in order for me to force myself to get it done and keep pushing through and coming back to a normal functioning life, it has to be something that is fun, that interests me, and that I feel I can actually do and progress within. I do some gym training but to really activate my body and get the hormonal aid to my recovery some more sporty stuff is helpful.
I've found American football really fun and interesting. The tactical elements truly attract me, and the fact that there are positions for all body types, and for people with no ball handling talents, it really is something I can and want to do. Also, contact sports is something I always enjoyed in the past. Socially this is also extremely good for me since I've lost so much social contacts and interaction over the years in almost complete social isolation.
Now, my problem is; still being medically unable to work I rely on a very small state allowance/wellfare income which is just enough to pay for apartment and food basically. In order to do this thing I will need help. Just as a startup there is a lot of apparel like shoes, clothing, protective gear and such which I need to invest in. I also need to pay club fees for registration and training. There will likely also be some travelling involved.
If you could help me to be able to do this it will have a serious and direct impact on my life in a very positive way. Both my physical and psychological health would benefit and hopefully help me recover so that I may return to normality with a job, and a functional social life.
Every little bit helps and you would have my sincerest gratitude, and if ever I can do anything to return your kindness in the future, of course I will. Indeed, I would love to be back to where I can again do things for others instead of having to be the one asking others for help. It is not an easy thing to do for me.
So thank you for anything! It is truly appreciated!