The love of my life James, had a massive heart attack on Valentine's day, and died beside me in the car and the loss of oxygen to his brain for length of time it took for them to get him back with CPR caused significant damage. He was not able to come back to us and I had to say goodbye on Tuesday February 18th. He was an organ donor and I stayed by his side as they took him off life support, and I walked him home to Heaven's gates talking to him and singing to him until he passed away.I am completely devastated.

James came into my life like a whirlwind and upturned my life, we bought a house, made many memories in the two years we were together, and suffered a miscarriage. Even though we were together for such a short time, the things we went through only strengthened our bond. When talking to his friends, several told me he was waiting to propose to get me the "ring I deserved". I would have gladly said yes.

Losing our baby and now James is more than I can bare emotionally, mentally and unfortunately financially. James did not leave behind anything and now I have to try to sort out with having to finish a basement reno that he started, paying his half of the bills, general house/pets/pool expenses, and having to get a probate lawyer to sort out selling the house in the fall.

To those that have already contributed and those that still will, I am beyond blessed to have such wonderful people in my life and I am beyond grateful. If you feel so led, please share this. Thank you.