is there an end?

Since 2012, mine and my families lives have changed. I became very sick and have gone through, kidney failure, heart failure, aspiration into my lungs, implanted lvads, seizures, strokes, heart transplant, oxygen deprived brain, terminal nephropathy, urology problems, medication sicknesses, lung hardening, depression, stage 3 chronic kidney disease and much more. So you can imagine after 7 years of my medical issues this has affected my entire family, physically and mentally.  I one day hope to return to work but I am still  being screened for medical issues that affect my return. My wife back in 2003 was injured at work and has fallen by the wayside with terrible physical pain and depression which along with my problems has caused terrible mental issues.  While we deal with this, my son faces everyday wondering whats going to happen next. Since my heart transplant, I have tried to help my wife guide my son in the right directions. He has made us both proud with his talent and selflessness. But here we are again, I begin to start feeling better and am trying to build my strength back and my mental status from years of nightmares and physical traumatizes.  Being an immigrant from England and becoming a citizen a couple of months after my second LVAD i am on the lowest disability scale there is. I am blessed that I have something at all but there is nothing worse than not being able to see a future or support your own family.  I would give my last dollar to help anyone and the same goes with my wife. I hate asking for charity, I hate being that burden, I hate the thought of struggling again and feeling like a failure. $6000 meds, transport, cost of living, trying to play catch up but never getting there! Then losing my wife's income leaves you hopeless. There are only so many prayers I can pray. So below is my original video and since making this, a whole lot has happened. Thanks to my unknown donor, I live and breathe again and am blessed for the selflessness of my hero. Not all heroes wear capes. I was privileged to be invited to speak with heart patient at OSU Ross Auditorium in March of 2019. I often watch the video below and realize that if you add hope and comedy into medical issues that frighten the life out of most people you can turn a situation around. It has also made me look at becoming a motivational speaker focusing on human life, the human body and today and tomorrow.  www.heartofmark.com  The title seems a little dramatic but times couldn't be more desperate.  I can't give up on life and I can't give up on helping others but something has to give and that's what frightens me. To everyone that has help and supported myself, my wife and family over the years, I thank you.  Mark PLEASE SHARE....... Thank you.