Going to Finland - My last chance for Life

Hello my friends, and for those who don’t know me, my name is Sonia.

For the last 4 years I’m living in a nightmare. My physical and mental life-experience is very similar to what people describe as a bad psychedelic trip; I feel broken, even though I’m not, I feel my eyes in my teeth and my head in the stomach, my right side and left side are like a Picasso picture, among many other symptoms.

At first I thought like: “hmmm cool, interesting…” but after it didn’t stop, it became unbearable.

I went to different therapies, Hospitals, Neurological tests, Psychiatrist treatments, pills, Physiotherapy, Naturopathic methods and nobody could explain or help me with what I’m going through.

Because of my health situation I couldn’t work anymore, Covid got me even more isolated in my own horrible reality. Slowly, this reality became the only thing I experience. And this is not a life one wants to live.

After trying very hard and not finding a solution I started looking for responsible ways to end my life. I don’t want to live like this for another year and I don’t see the end of it. It’s only getting worse every day.

But killing yourself responsibly also costs money… so I thought, maybe instead of making to effort and finding the money to die, I’ll give it a chance and make the effort in finding the money to live.

I found this therapist in Finland which I couldn’t find in Germany. She’s inviting me for 2 weeks in her farm, in nature. She will support me with mental and physical care. Also, I will enter a healthy routine with small and challenging tasks which will force me to get out of my current “self” and feel a part of life again.

Any sum will be appreciated and I’m grateful for your support.

Love, Sonia