FrEe ShAuNa•her cabin•dreams•sanity

MY STORY~ Hi my name is Shauna, I’m trying to save •my cabin •my dreams •my sanity. This is one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do ...ask for help ....Especially so publicly admitting that I can’t do it all by myself, I mean I have been taking care of myself since I was 14. When this all started, I did have help ,he was awesome! But due to personal and family reasons I am by myself now. My part-time/seasonal neighbors have decided they don’t like to look of my yard ~it’s too messy . They had a survey done because they didn’t like the one that was previously marked and somehow the two end markers were accepted but the middle one moved 4 feet against me ?! So now my shed is 3 feet over the line ( The one that has been here for 50 years) and they want me to take it down . The new shed that was put up (after going to the county and making sure it was going in the right place ( following county rules)is now 3 feet too close , or 27 feet instead and 30 feet from the property line and they also want that one taken down. Their tenacity for the last year ,yes year!! has proved boundless. The county comes tomorrow and I am going to receive a fine of $50 A DAY until I am in compliance. Between my illness ~the weather (Brrrrr!! Odegrees tonight) ~car problems ~people not showing up ~me not being very good at putting myself first ~ maybe afraid they will say no so not asking enough people for help . Now I’m about to lose everything and I really really need help ....please. I know I hadn’t seen or spoke to a lot of the people I’m going to ask for help ....guess I just didn’t want to be “that girl” the one who only has bad news to share , because that’s pretty much how my whole year has been. one thing after another and No one wants to hear that ! I don’t want to be pitied , I just want things to get better ~so I try every day . The quick summary ~ A year ago ,after totaling three trucks~not remembering any of the accidents ~and not even having a fender bender in 30 years ~ to figure out I was having seizures. Not the kind (grand mal )were you are on the ground in fear biting your tounge. They are a more subtle I don’t know I’m having them absence seizures . I admit I’ve always been a little late to things , but after the first accident I was A LOT late to things ...losing time ....not just minutes or hours losing days .....seizing daily~frequently. I don’t know how to explain losing time ....I don’t know what’s happening when it does ....it’s scary ,it’s frustrating . Realizing that you’re not in control and you hope that this is not the day that you do something stupid while you’re seizing and you didnt tell the people that you love that you love them. That from everyone of you I learned something . So~ to all my peeps••••I LOVE YOU•••• The medications the doctors give me to change my brain chemistry and keep those electrodes firing is intense !!!! Some of the side effects are severe and they just tell you “do the benefits outweigh the side effects “ ( I believe that’s the catchall phrase when the side effects suck) Still trying to get the combination right ,not liking side effects ,but taking it day by day. If only I could afford the CBD’s ,the natural cure and see if it works for me , too spendy for this chick right now ......,hopefully not always. THE COSTS The tractor and equipment to yank my 10 by 10 shed 3 feet ~$300 to $400 The fine $50 a day from the county until my property is in compliance 8 to 16 days and probably more like 16 days (hopefully eight) ~$400-$800 A contractor (hoping to find a friend who will teach me)to build a wall and tear down three feet from the 50-year-old shed estimating at $30 an hour , 3 - 8/ hour days ~$700 to $900 The cost to fix the transportation that is not mine and I have been borrowing .....to replace the clutch ~$900-$1200 and bald bald tires ~$500 ••• A 1998 or 99 Toyota forerunner (which has saved my life literally twice ) manual transmission ****priceless *****I just saw one for 5000 in the nedlist on Facebook oh to dream••• Thank you for taking the time to look read my story you all mean a lot to me and I appreciate it and I completely understand if you can’t help maybe you could just share this with your friends , 7° of separation ,I might know them I’m not sure I expect to reach my goal but if I can save my house and feel like I’m in some control , with some dignity and a little understanding from those involved, ,while I do it ~that’s what I need. I need to know that I can do it ...And I can do it !! It might take me longer then I guess everybody else would like ~but I can do it ! This is my home. This is my safe zone while they get the medication right and I get back on my feet. I can’t imagine ever living down below (in the flats as we call it) again. This is my home . family cabin in Lincoln Hills .Gilpin County ,Colorado, that my grandfather purchased the 60s when this area was considered a resort for color people. I am one of only two year-round residents of color still living up this mountain in Lincoln Hills since I moved here in Feb. 1986. Please help me save •my cabin •my dreams •my sanity . Every little bit helps and I truly appreciate it.....thank you so much !!! If you have any questions feel free to get hold of me ~ Shauna Ford 29 Pitts Place Blackhawk, Colorado 80422 [email redacted] [phone redacted]