This is the first time that I am starting a ‘gofundme’, but it is not for me. It is for a young Turkish woman in my area who was suffering in silence for too long and who thought that her only way out was to end it.
Last week Thursday afternoon, I tragically witnessed this young woman jump to her death from the 3rd floor of her balcony from the building next door to mine.
I don’t want to go into details of what that looked like and what followed, but believe me no one ever wants to see something like that. She knew many people in the area and due to this many of her family and friends bore witness to what many of us saw too.
The screaming and wailing of the family and friends and the vision of her lifeless body lying there on the ground is something that is going to sit with them and all who saw for always. The tears streamed down my face as I cried tears of pain and anguish for this precious life lost too soon. I felt so helpless for my fellow sister. So many questions washed over me afterwards. Why did she do it? What was going on that brought her to this point? Had I met and seen her on my street before? Could I have done something if I had taken noticed and perhaps spoken to her? It turns out we did speak a year and a half ago as I was reminded by a guy who owns a shop on our street. It breaks my heart that I do not remember and that at that time did not see any sign of cry for help from her. This sits heavy with me.
So often so many of us suffer in silence, keeping a smile on our faces as to not push others away when we are feeling very depressed because no one wants to be around a downer...I implore all of you to become more comfortable with openly speaking out about our feelings and asking others about theirs. Check in with your family and friends regularly. Never feel ashamed, scared or shy because you will soon realise how many of us all suffer and how opening up and speaking about it can help so many of us and save lives!
I have yet to be able ask what her name was as it is still very raw for many within the Turkish community in my area, but once I do, I plan to put a face to her name, so her voice can be heard. I have lived on my street for most of my time in Berlin. I have come to love and respect the Turkish community here. I have know many members of the community for many years. I have learnt the majority of my German language in my area from them and I have been trusted and welcomed into this community whilst living here. I have always been made to feel very part of it and I felt the pain of this beautiful lose in our community and because of this I want to help.
I have been thinking so much about the family and how difficult this must be for all of them because I know the pain of lose through tragedy. I know that they will be flying her back to Turkey and it is my idea to raise some money to help the family towards the funeral costs. At a time like this even some financial support can ease a lot of stress and I would like to see if I can help raise some money through everyone that reads this. Any amount will help and I am certain they will be grateful for every cent given as it is a sign and gesture of help, love and support from everyone that gives!
Thank you for reading this story and I hope to raise enough to make a small difference in this poor families life as they lay their daughter, granddaughter, sister, cousin, friend to rest.