Finding Lyn's Voice Again

This is the story of a talented woman who wants nothing more than to have a fair shot at being taken serious in life and be a better teacher, mentor, mother, and daughter.  Life has dealt me hard hands, but i have always prevailed. I work hard, and try to be a good teacher to my music students, a good mother, and a helpful daughter around the farm, that will hopefully be mine someday to grow and expand. However, with  my weight much of this is difficult and near impossible. Because of my weight and continued outside, and inside judgement..... I have lost my voice. When my father had a health crisis over the summer, I realized I had to step up my game around the farm. I am a hoss and can carry the weight, but  long hours of labor took too much of a toll on my body. It scared my family and myself to the point of worrying that I would be in the hospital next to my dad. I am a big girl but I am not a couch potato. I move, I work, I can do most things, even with my weight in the way. I want more than anything to be able to ride, show, and help my mother train horses. I want to sing on stage and not have a panic attack at the thought of people staring at my stomach instead of just listening to my voice. I used to dream of being a singer, now I dream of teaching others who has a love for music. I LOVE hiking, and fishing,  and staring at the stars from a mountain top. I want to do these things again. I also want to be a warrior for my community. A voice of strength and resolve to others who cannot fight for themselves. I really want to be an advocate for others who have had simililar struggles and didn' know where to turn. 
I used to be outgoing, happy, and want to get back to that confidence. I have always prided myself of doing for others, whether it is moral support, physical help, or whatever someone needs, I will do my best to help. However, it is now time to take care of me. I have spent the better part of 2017 getting my testing and other things in order to be able to have gastric bypass surgery. However, insurance will only cover so much.  
As a single parent I work multiple jobs and cut costs as much as I can, however, with other medical costs for my daughter too, and emergency expenses, what little surgery money I had worked so hard to save...... is now, pretty much gone.  I have until the end of 2017 to get my surgery, because it looks like insurance is diminishing coverage for the surgery. So, unfortunately a month to get it all together. 
I hate to ask people for help, but sometimes, as I was taught, you just have to ask, and hope / pray for those that you have helped, will return the favor. Can I ask of you all to share this and help in anyway you can? I want to thank you all in advance for any and all assistance! 
If you have questions, or want to know about my story, I am happy to answer all questions and talk with you all individually!