My trip to see my father grave

My name is Faiza and I have two beautiful boys .My father passed away Thursday  March 24th  at 10:15 am .. I will never forget that day... I’m trying togo home and see my father ( i know i will not phisically be able to but i know he will see me and hear me) that I didn’t see him for 4 year and now he is gone. My 2 years old doesn’t even know who  is grandpa is , I don’t want my 2 kids  to go thru the same thing  with  grandma too. I haven’t been able to go because of the financial burden the trip put in our family but I regret it so much now and I know I will live the rest of my life wondering  what if .. My dad had a stroke 5 and half years ago his quality of life was not the best my mom who is 68 years old took care of him until he passed away in her arms, 50 years of marriage, mom also lost her  youngest brother January 16 2016. A heavy year for her. She tries  so hard to stay strong and her faith does help  her a lot. Most people said the surviving spouse usually doesn’t live long after their partner. My wish is my 2 yrs and my 6 yrs old be able to spend few weeks with her and for me to  maybe able   to lessen the pain and the emptiness I feel.  
I will be using the fund to purchase ticket  and the trip expense. I know most of my friend ask what they can do to help me I didn’t think they can do anything to ease my pain until my closest friend Jennifer sugest I will post it in Go Fund me at first I felt very uncomfortable  but she assured me that my friends and colleague will love to help