I was diagnosed with depression at age 12 and was started on anti depressants. I believe the anxiety was always there as well but I wasn't diagnosed until 15.
Insomnia, panic attacks, intense self hate, and suicidal ideation, followed by detailed planning of said suicidal ideas, followed by first failed attempt.
But the first time I made myself throw up I was 10 years old.
By 19 I'd romantically swayed with anorexia, twirled with bulimia, and spun around with binging. This killing dance repeated over and over.
1 2 3
don't eat don't eat
4 5 6
have it all take it all
7 8 9
get it out get it out
hospitals, alcohol, traumas, faces leaving, nightmares, self harm, deaths of heros, blackout drunk blackout drunk black out drunk
I have reached a low in my life and need help in a big way. I am seeking residential treatment at the Center for Change in Utah and have to pay out of pocket.
This year my adoptive father, my grandpa and my hero, passed away. He served in the Air Force and I have Tricare insurance as a beneficiary.
Tricare will not cover me to get treatment at the trauma center I had previously been to.
I am asking for help paying for my treatment at the Center for Change as Tricare not only just won't cover me for inpatient/residential right now at all, but Tricare doesn't allow Tricare dependants over the age of 21. My grandmother, who has suffered yet another stoke this year, is willing to pay for some time there.
Roughly 3-4 weeks.
Anything absolutely anything that can be donated would be immensely appreciated. I don't expect to reach the set goal. But anything that can help would be so treasured.
I am hoping that with this treatment I will be able to go back to school and potentially fulfill a promise to my grandpa that I would graduate from college. My issues with mental illness have put a full stop on my life. I believe I am going nowhere. But I also believe that anything you can donate to help would help me on my way to going somewhere in my life.
Thank you so much for reading please spread this and help this little nobody girl go somewhere.