Eating Disorder Treatment Support

I am 43 years old and have had an eating disorder for 31 years. I am asking for your help in getting into Partial Hospitalization (PHP) treatment for my anorexia. I do not want my eating disorder to define me anymore as I have done this before, because it is the nature of the disease to think that I AM an anorexic

 

Believing that I am nothing but the eating disorder that has taken over three decades of my life is not who I am and I really want to be well.
I am a human being who is trying to survive and perhaps didn’t learn the best tools at a young age to do so. I am a mother of three children, a wife, daughter, a friend, a sister and a nurse and I am a hard worker. 

However, I am also sick. I have lost so much time with my children and my husband, my relationships, and years of my life. The financial toll that this disease has taken on my family and our bank account has left me feeling like I can’t go to treatment. I am unable to support myself going to treatment. In humbleness I am asking for help.

 

I am also asking for funds to pay for my monthly rent of $900.00 plus expenses to live in the apartments while I am in treatment.

I am hoping that I can raise enough money to go to Castlewood Treatment Center's PHP Program at the Highlands, for at least two months. Your help would enable me to get in the door and stay that length of time. 

Again, I know that I may not know a lot of you and believe me, starting a go fund me is nothing I ever thought I'd have the courage to do. Putting my pride aside, I am asking for your help. No donation is too small. I feel that this time around to admit into treatment feels a lot different than the preceding times I went. This time I really am ready to work on my trauma and hopefully be set free of needing my eating disorder to stuff my traumatic pain.
 
I believe that a full recovery from eating disorders is possible.


I want to be a success story. As my weight continues to drop, my hope of recovery diminishes with it. 


Supported by my support team, I know that I need a higher level of care and am asking for your help to achieve it. I know that there is life beyond living with an eating disorder.
I am scared that if I don’t get help, after this long being sick, one day soon my body will give out. 
I am meant to live. I am meant to be healthy and be present for myself, my children, my husband and my patients. I am meant to help others. I am asking for your help to get me there.
Thank you and God Bless 
 
Bonnie Knesek