Mom said start smaller first. Though I'm ready to have some permanent roots. I'm ready to have a home with my mom and my family. I need somewhere big enough to handle all the crazy between the two of us and then still be big enough for my goof ball nephew, Izik and soon to be his little sister Izabella, and there parents. However no matter how hard I try, or how hard I work it seems life takes me 2 sprints uphill and one swift push back down and into a hole. The price to keep my goof ball close amd safe is as steep if not more so than the hill I keep trying to climb. But its not just me wanting for myself. I will always take care of the crazy lady who brought me into this world and constantly threatens to take me out only to realize if she did life wouldnt be as fun. So i want to be able to give her a home big enough to handle me and the stress that comes with trying to keep Izik and his crazy parents. Biggest obstacle first, cant even begin looking at loans for a house let alone a down payment on one is about 15k of my own desperate decisions and 10k of my moms that we need to clear off our chests. I don't have the best case of asking for help. I tend to rely more often than not on myself for everything but this time I just dont feel i soley have the strength to do it as quickly as we need. I dont have it in me to see things go in a downward spiral anymore. So this is me asking for help. Help to wipe mine and my moms slates clean and hit the reset button hard enough to get a forever home. I want to thank anyone willing to read and even more so if willing to lend a hand to help us out. I'm told i dont ask for help often enough but this is me asking for help now. Thank you for your time and help.