Asking for help

So this may be the hardest, most selfish and humbling thing I have had to do. As most of you may know I have suffer from the disease of alcoholism for decades. I have had bouts of sobriety but never stuck long enough to a program. Recently I was hospitalized for pancreatitis, Mt triglycerides were in the 900's. I was released and went to detox for 3 days.   I have been given the opportunity to go live in a sober house called an Oxford house.  Those who may not be familiar with them, you can google it. It essentially is a sober living house where you share responsibilities, do 12 step work. Ina addition, they help you find work and get back on your feet. It is sort of like transitional housing. You are allowed to have all your stuff including laptops and phones so you are not separated from the world. The only requirement is that you go to groups and remain sober. You are allowed to stay as long as needed. Recently I have been sleeping in my truck in abandoned parking lots and visiting soup kitchens to get by. I went to North Carolina because I thought I was going to get into a mental health facility.  However, it didn't work out. The behavior community service center here has a bed for me, the only problem is it is not free, albeit, very cheap as they want you yo live on you own after completing a 12 step program (which I've never done). It is 90 dollars to get the bed and 125 a week with the first month needed to be paid in full plus security, after that which includes all utilities.  Unfortunately, I have no money or funds coming in and as time goes by I could lose my bed at the house. This is my last chance as my doctor said my last drink could very well kill me. I understand this is a lot to ask for help from people, but desperate measures call for desperate time., and I was convinced to try this. I really think this is the way to beat this because it will give me a sober support and community. If you are to leave any messages, please do not be negative as I am in a fragile state, and the tears are drying up. Thank you for reading. It's not easy throwing yourself out there, and I know many others are struggling financially. I'm just praying that somehow I can get where I need to be. With love. -Bill