Journey to become parents

Well hello there!

We are just two 36.5-year-old kids who are in love (borderline obsessed) with each other who want to raise kid(s) in our bubble of love, respect, kindness, weirdness and adventure. 

Synopsis: We grew up in Ohio with near ideal childhoods, played collegiate sports, entered the real world working in Cincinnati (where we met in 2005), became "just friends" who kind of really, really liked each other, moved to the PNW and decided to be a couple after 3 years of friendship. Kris got an opportunity to work in Singapore for 3 years so off we went again! We explored the world from 2010-2013, got married in Ohio in September 2013, moved back to WA after wedding/honeymoon with our dog pal Walter and settled in for our super awesome future we thought we had coming our way. 

Here is where the non-fun stuff about us begins: First miscarriage June 2013. Second miscarriage January 2014. Third miscarriage July 2014. Fourth miscarriage March 2015. Failed IUI September 2015. Fifth miscarriage January 2016. Sixth miscarriage and loss of left fallopian tube (ectopic/internal bleeding) August 2016. First failed IVF (transferred two embryos via Seattle Reproductive Medicine which is 1.5 hours away from us) a year later in August 2017. Most recently, a seventh miscarriage in January 2017 after being diagnosed with an elevated TSH (thyroid stimulating hormone) level. Started medication the day I started miscarrying. Fun revelation! 

So here we sit...still. Numb, inexplicably sad, confused and ready to stop spending our thirties on infertility. I have been told I have a strand of MTHFR, possible poor egg quality, low egg reserve, blood clotting disorder that was later acknowledged as a misdiagnosis...ya'll get it. It's hard being told what's wrong with you and yet, not being able to fix it. 

Seeing your husband's red rimmed eyes with salty tears dripping off his unshaved chin makes you want to take charge of this nonsense and give the most intelligent, hardworking, understanding, laid back person you know a d*mn child that hopefully looks and acts exactly like him.  I think this time around he used the word "despair". So here we are...asking for help for the first time in this vicious infertile circle of hell we are in. 

This is a tremendously awkward and nerve wracking step we are taking. Putting our deeply personal business out there in the world is NOT fun nor comfortable for us. But desperate times call for using the internet to your advantage because let's be real...we deserve to be parents. I said it. I believe it. We want it. 

We will use all donations to fund adoption or who knows...one more try at IVF even though I just said I don't wanna. Stay tuned. 

Thanks for reading our story and feel free to share yours! xo