Just trying to make it

So this is me going past my pride and just trying to survive. So while I was at a military training event in California on our way to Utah I had a seizure, major Heart Attack and died four times. Thankfully for the people with me I survived and was taken to a hospital in Reno where I spent 4 days in the ICU. Thankfully for my family and the hospital staff I survived. I think being home has been more of a fight. It has been 2 months and I just got a doctors appointment scheduled today January 5th. It has been a constant struggle to be paid by the military which still hasn’t happened. I have been in constant communication with so many different military people and nobody has been able to help me. I have been told that it will be taken care of and two months later I’m still waiting. I can’t go back to work until I’m cleared. No Work no money. Today is my youngest sons 8th birthday and I couldn’t even buy him a gift. He doesn’t care but I do. I was just hoping the military would take care of things but apparently that’s not the case. I have never been one to ask for help and would give my last dime to help someone else. With millions of questions and no clear answers in sight I see this as a last resort in the attempt to be able to move on and provide my children with a roof over their head and food on the table. The amount is just a number.