Cancer Can Kiss It
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Hi Guys,
So this is very, extremely, crazy humiliating for me. If you know me, you know I am extremely stubborn, to say the least. That's why I am refusing to let this cancer take anything away from me. Except maybe an organ or two lol. Just kidding. Long story short, I was diagnosed with a disease called multiple myeloma in November. It was found after some 16 year old girl that just received her license, smashed into my car and totaled it. So, I go to the hospital and get all checked out. The doctor comes back in, all huffy and says, "Would have been nice to know about the growth on your spine prior to the MRI, it's grown almost double in size since last year" (I was in another car accident in 2015 which I had gotten an MRI, but was discharged with a clean bill of health) Apparently the MRI from 2015 had shown the first sighting of one of my tumors on my spine. But no one told my mother and I. So, off I go to see all kinds of doctors. Then I was diagnosed with multiple myeloma. Google explains it "The plasma cells are a type of white blood cell in the bone marrow. With this condition, a group of plasma cells becomes cancerous and multiplies. The disease can damage the bones, immune system, kidneys, and red blood cell count." So the treatments begin. I loose my REALLY good job, which was needed because it didn't offer insurance and I couldn't afford it so it was a group decision that i would quit/get laid off because I was missing too much work and I couldn't afford my own insurance and I damn sure couldn't afford the hospital and doctor bills. Meanwhile, Enrique was/still is working 90 hours a WEEK, sometimes more. Literally killing himself, just to get us by. So even though access(state insurance) was paying some of my medical bills, and I am receiving a small amount of food stamps for food every month which I am SOO immensely greatful for, we still have crazy amounts of bills. The time in between where I didn't have insurance, I had to pay out of pocket for doctor appointments or make "promise to pays" with monthly payments every month. So I got another job to try and help with the bills. Lost that job today, because I was diagnosed with cervical cancer. I now have to get surgery and remove a large portion of my cervix which is leaving me completely infertile. I'm so heartbroken. My job, i didnt loose for anything I had done, but what MIGHT happen. I was told after I'm "cured" I can come back to work, but for now I am not needed because the job is too demanding and they don't think I'll be able to juggle both. Instead of letting me make that decision it was made for me, even though I showed up every single day for work with a smile on my face. No one but my boss knew I was sick, I tried to keep the two separate. She told me to make sure I keep her updated. Her actual world's were, "Please keep me updated on everything the doctor says, DO NOT WORRY ABOUT YOUR JOB, IT IS SAFE. I want to make sure I can help"
We cannot afford to drown again. I am applying for social security benefits, but that does take a significant amount of time. My surgery is requiring me to make a $800.00 payment to help cover the cost of anesthesia and money is so, so tight that i don't think we're going to be able to make it. If it wasn't a life threatening ordeal, I would suck it up and work to save the money. I will also be using this money to cover lawyer fees, which is needed for situations like this because my social security getting denied and insurance making me cover things like this is past my level of expertise Anything will help us, even $1.00, no joke. I believe in my Heavenly Father will watch over me and I know He has a plan for me. Whatever it is I trust him, whole heartedly. Again, I wouldn't be asking unless I knew what else to do. Want me to pick weeds? I'll do it. Pick up dog poop? I'm your girl.
Anything will help. Even if you could just share this. Thank you all for taking time to read this.
Thank you & God Bless
