New beginnings

Hello, so this is probably the most embarrassing and hardest thing ill ever do but I'm honestly left with no choice but to reach out for help... So im going to be completely honest and open here bc admission is the first step... Im a 28 year old single father to an amazingly stunning young lady named Jocelyn Danielle Farley. She is the light of my life and is solely responsible for the positive events happening in my life right now. I have been a addict for more than 10 years of my life and when my daughter was born i went cold turkey and enjoyed several years of my life sober because I was raising my princess completely on my own it was us against the world.. I was still and addict to pain pills but my priority were straight and she wanted for absolutely nothing.. At this time we were living in longs sc and decide to relocate witch burnt up my savings but the job I was moving to take paied better than any ive had in my life and could have been life changing for my princess so I made the move not knowing that i would work one week and the world would shut down due to covid-19. I ended up being without income for 67 days and as a result left me headed for homeless with a 6 year old. At that time I done the hardest thing I have ever done in my life and sent MY PRINCESS to "vaca" with aunty. For the first time in my childs life daddy wasn't t goin to kiss her good night or tuck her in and it almost broke me. Being without her effected me in a way like I never felt possible and as a result I relapsed and started using Heroin again for the first time since Jan 2 2014 the day jocelyn was born... So for the next year i became consumed by guilt ,depression and udder disgust... I felt weak and inadequate bc nothing should keep me from my baby girl NOTHING. And in cell deeper and deeoer into my addiction and after a close call with an overdose I asked myself what kind of father are you thay this is more imprtant that her and how are you that selfish that in seconds you could have left thus amazing little soul with no daddy no guidance no nothing amd all i could come up with its not your just a peice of absolute shit that needed to wake up and wake up now before she is lost forever. It wasent untill i got to see my child for the first time since I sent her to auntie and seen then look in her eyes a look that said i hear and feel daddy but daddy dont look like daddy and i felt it to the core so i chose to send her away I seen why i must change why I must beat the way I will live everyday of my life one sober day at a time. And I doing it for jocelyn but I have to do it for me as well. I've started a program to get me off the drugs safely AMD counseling programs to teach me how-to live sober bc quiting is the first step. I have to choose everyday to be sober and these classes are going to a big help.. Im making thus go fund me only after going back and fourth for days on wither or not this is dumb to ask for bc untamatley this is my doing and my responsibility to fix. A man once told me that sometimes you must swallow you pride bc the decisions you make may not only effect you and i realized my daughter needs this done a fixed now not tomorrow or next week but now. So im here asking for anyome who would be willing or able to donate towards the start of a new life for my princess and I we are starting from scratch first order being raising money for a car. So weither its 1 penny or 1 dollar everything is appreciated and met with gratitude you couldn't begin to comprehend51567314_160142792869253_r.jpeg
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