ongoing health issues

this has always been my last resort and something i never wanted to have to do for my own financial needs, but too much has happened and it's more than i can comprehend or handle on my own. i should have asked for help a long time ago, but i couldn't justify it when i felt physically capable of making my own money. i haven't been capable for 2 months now, so i am reluctantly but desperately asking for help to make it through this.

thank you so much to everyone who donated to help me when my jeep died which is why i originally made this gofundme. i was without a vehicle for a week while dealing with health issues so the money really helped me make it through that week of so many unexpected expenses. i'm updating this information to be more relevant for what is going on because it extends far past car problems and i'm still in need of help due to ongoing health issues.

i've had chronic migraines since i was 5 years old which is a complex neurological disorder that comes with a plethora of potential coborbidities, several of which i have and take medication for, so i'm very used to not feeling well but still being able to push through it.

something very different is happening this time as i have been completely unable to function like i used to- most days i can't even get out of bed, which is terrifying and has completely broken my spirit. i have tried several medication changes and new medications, but nothing has helped. i just got back from urgent care to have more bloodwork done because the wait time for my appointments with my doctors is too long and i need answers. this has taken the most detrimental toll on my business since i work for myself without assistance, my relationships, my finances, my mental health, everything- even just writing this is difficult for me to do because i have such horrible brain fog and cant think clearly. changing medications has been so hard because quitting, starting, or increasing meds has side effects that i have to get through. 

 

i have been under extreme constant stress since returning to the states on a repatriation flight from belize at the end of june 2020 so i could attempt to save my business during the pandemic. my credit is horrific from my ex business partner leaving me with tens of thousands of dollars worth of debt and extremely complicated and expensive tax issues, the SBA never assisted me/my business during the pandemic because of my credit score (which tanked from being stuck abroad during covid for 5 months plus all the debt I was left with), so i've been unable to get any type of loan or credit card after 2 years of trying every possible avenue- it has truly been a nightmare and a vicious cycle of debt that i cannot break out of.

 

i know life is impossibly hard for everyone right now and the world is in total chaos, so asking for help right now is the last thing i want to do, but i feel backed into a corner from the lack of options available.

 

the goal amount is much lower than what i realistically need, but truly anything at all helps. when i don't receive donations from my cat rescue amazon wishlist, i pay out of pocket for the 10-15 homeless TNR cats that i care for, which has cost a ton this month. part of any money raised will go towards their care as well.

 

i am so sorry to all backbite customers who are still waiting on orders- i could not have imagined how many unexpected obstacles i would come up against this year and that my health would make it nearly impossible to function. my priority is getting all pending orders shipped and making enough money to survive so i can focus on figuring out my health so i can have some semblance of a life back. i will not be able to continue running backbite as it is now, so i have to figure out what to do. it’s all more than i can handle. 

 

thank you so much for any help. i am eternally grateful.

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