Reunited at last

My name is Melissa Scambler, I am a mother to 5 beautiful children. I am a wife, a friend, a sponsor and a Behavioral Health Clinician, I am far from perfect and have made many mistakes in my life.      8 years ago my daughter whom we will call "L" due to pending litigation was taken by her father on what was supposes to be a week long trip to see his family and they never returned....    Shortly after they did not come back I fell into drugs heavily, I used to mask the emptiness I felt inside. My life spiraled out of control rapidly. While using I became pregnant with my son, shortly after his birth he and my oldest daughter were removed from my care and became wards of the state I haven't used any mind altering substances since its been 4 years 9 months...     During the first 3 years of my daughter being missing I searched on social media platforms for her, I was high and the thought of involving the police was not something I could do for fear of being deemed unfit and loosing her forever.    In 2015 I made contact with his then wife she provided me with minimal information due to them recently divorcing and her not knowing where he went. In 2016 his parents contacted me requesting information as they didn't think his story that I "gave" her to him was true, but had no idea where he went. I was just beginning my dependency case and poured all of my focus into reunification with my oldest daughter and my son. In this 2 1/2 year time of working my DCS case plan I continued to search for her but due to being blocked on all social media fronts I always hit a wall. I created over 50 different fake accounts to attempt to find them, when I would make contact that account would be blocked as well.     I successfully completed my DCS case plan in 2018. Since then I have been married to an absolutely amazing man whom has loved all of my children as his own. He has held me during every holiday and birthday that I sobbed uncontrollably mourning the loss of a child whom was very much alive. He encouraged me to get back up and pulled me out of every deep dark depression I have fallen into over the last 3 years since we met.      I have a 13 year old daughter whom has mourned the loss of her baby sister never being able to fully understand why her father took her from us and why the man she once called Daddy didn't love her enough to take her too so she didn't have to miss her sister. I've dealt with my grief in private but have always tried to comfort her and assure her it wasn't her fault but she has assumed so much guilt.     I have continued to look for my daughter over the last 8 years, I have never stopped believing that heavenly father would reunite us and I would be able to hold my little baby L in my arms again. I have prayed everyday for her return. Today I work as a Behavioral Health Clinician helping other mother's and father's whom currently have a DCS dependency case with reunification of their children.     Last week I was contacted and given all the information needed to finally bring my baby home. I received the call at 11:30 at night and was on a plane headed to where she was at by noon the next day.    I went with every intention and confirmation I was within my right to pick her up and take her back to Arizona.     I was 2 doors down from her for 3 days. It was excruciating emotionally but I knew I had to do this the right way. L has been gone for 8 years she has no idea who I am, she knows of me but she has had another woman an amazing, loving and very special woman as her Mommy for the past 5 years. If I took her from everything she knows and loves it would hurt her and I have never wanted anything but for her happiness.     I will be flying back and forth from Arizona to Alabama re-establishing a relationship with my baby girl before she comes home. I have fought every day since I got clean for my children and their happiness and to make our family whole again and it is finally happening!!! I am asking for help as it is a huge financial strain on my husband, myself and my 4 babies at home. Any money's given will go towards airline tickets, fees associated with court costs and attorney fees and helping to get Miss L settled here in Arizona when she is able to come home. All of my prayers have been answered and my heart feels full for the first time in 8 years! If you cannot donate please share!