Black beast melanoma

My name is kelly. I never thought i would have a story on a web sight like this. I was always on the outside looking in. I was always the person that couldn't believe the stories i was reading and how terrible life can be. Now i am living one of these stories and i would not wish this on ANYONE. I was diagnosed with metastatic melanoma in December of 2016. I had a mole on my right upper shoulder on my back that was always suspicious but i never had it checked. One day at work i felt a swollen lymphnode on the right side of my neck that was removed and biopsied. It tested positive for melanoma. I was then diagnosed with metastatic melanoma that spread to my lymphnodes. I knew at that moment my life wasn't mine anymore. I knew my life is going to be a battle i will need to fight. I have tried immunotherapy that my body did not take to. I also have been on 2 different chemotherapy oral medications. My body has had several severe reactions to these meds which has the doctors being cautious on what to prescribe me. The most recent medication that i have been on my body is getting immuned to and it has stopped working. My tumors are growing back. The doctors already did surgery in my neck and shoulder area also the lymphnodes under my right arm were removed. I had all cancerous lymphnodes removed. My latest pet scan showed the tumor in my shoulder area lighting up again and also the prime sight on my back the tumors are returning. The doctors are talking about surgery again. There are alot of risks. My case is going in front of a tumor board tomarrow to be discussed. I am still working but struggling badly. My work is amazing and does whatever they can but my medical bills are getting to be overwhelming for me. I am trying so hard to maintain a positive attitude but in reality i am not doing well. My overall health is still questionable and right now so are all my medical bills. I am in need of any help i can get. I will continue to fight this battle i never asked for. Nobody wants to fight for there life i just want  to live it. My first grandaughter was born i would love to be here for more of them. This cancer has taken a toll on my body. I am always tired. I have kidney disease from the cancer medications. I am trying the best i can to keep my stress level down but financially its killing me. I dont know what my future holds nobody does but i know i am struggling to have one now.