Baby Stufflebeam

Hello, my name is Maddison and my fiancés name is Jesse. We recently had lost our son who was stillborn at 22 weeks. We both went through what will probably be the most traumatizing event of our lives together this past Saturday morning. I was admitted to the hospital on September 15 for ruptured membranes and they weren’t quite sure if my water was broken or not. At that point I was going to be on bed rest for the remainder of my pregnancy. With a toddler at home and Jesse working 60 hours a week it was a very unsure and scary situation. Thankfully his mom was there to help take care of our other son. I was made aware that until my baby was 22 weeks gestation there was nothing the NICU could do if I were to go into labor. I completely understood that. Everything was good until Thursday, September 22. I had awful contractions the entire day. Friday was 10 times worse. I was in the most excruciating pain I have ever been in. The pain was so awful that I couldn’t even allow the nurses to use the fetal doppler on my stomach to check on the baby when they took my vitals. Had I known that would’ve been the last time I could have possibly gotten the chance to hear my son’s heartbeat I would have taken the pain and sat through it. Eventually the pain was so bad I had the doctor come to check on me. She immediately had me taken to labor and delivery. The rest of our birth story is something no one should have to read or write so I’m going to leave it at that. The hospital does have a couple of free options when it comes to laying our baby to rest. One would be to cremate free of charge and medically dispose of his remains. The second is a program that other local parents can choose to participate in and have the remains put into an urn with all of the other babies and taken to a memorial that is local. The second option is awesome program but neither Jesse or myself are local to the area and we would prefer to have our baby with us wherever we choose to go in the future. Any donations made will be used to help cover the cost of the cremation and any extra will be used to get memorial jewelry made for the both of us. I appreciate it if you have made it this far into our story and thank you for taking the time to read. We are still searching for the perfect name for our boy at this time.