Our family has recently entered a new season of challenges, and I want to share with you what is happening.
The last few weeks have been filled with medical appointments, and I have been diagnosed with colorectal cancer. At this point, it is unclear how far the cancer has spread, but we do know it has spread to some of the surrounding lymph nodes.
I am in the middle of several meetings with a medical team, and they will set out a treatment plan. If it is still localized, I will be having chemotherapy and radiation, followed by surgery, and then more chemo.
As you can imagine, there are a lot of difficulties in this new reality, especially as we try to navigate this with three kids and a baby. One thing we have learned from our previous seasons of medical troubles is that we can do hard things, especially because we have such an amazing community of support, both near and far.
I don’t have answers for what the future is going to contain, but I do know I want to walk bravely into this new wilderness. I want to remain awake to my loved ones, my self, and all that is within this space—even when that means being awake in the darkness. The One Who is Love is in the darkness, too.
If you are someone who prays, I ask you to pray that I will live these days well.
We also ask you to hold in your hearts and your prayers,
- our three little girls who have already had to go through times of stress and a sense of instability, and who are wary of and discouraged by the upcoming hospital stay and appointments I will have
- Skandar, as I try to figure out how to best care for his little baby self in this time
- effective and timely medical appointments and treatments
- practical needs to be met in the coming days (such as child care, house cleaning, pet care, meals, snow removal)
- financial needs, as Jordan will be working less and we will be trying to manage unforeseen costs
As I step into this wilderness with Jordan and our children, I am heartened by knowing our people.
So many of you have consistently shown up for us in the past, and I am incredibly grateful that we have you.