Anything to support my family

I don't know how to start this properly. I have so many things I want to say and get off my chest and
confiding in strangers may be one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. I'm not the person to ever ask others for help.
To be completly honest though, the end goal here isn't about me. It's about making sure my family is provided for even in my
darkest times.
2019 has brought nothing but misfortune and hard trials for us. The only shinning light being my first biological child was born this year, which Elijah is the picture used. In a way him and my family is part of the very few reasons I can still fight through everything. I don't know the proper way to conduct a story, I'm simply going to put everything out on the line for everyone to read.

This year started with losing one of my best friends, and a huge pillar in my close knitted group of friends. Friends that
we all related to each other as "Framily". Friends so close that we built it into what we consider a family.
Big Jon married my wife and myself and he was someone i could easily confide in, just like anyone else in my framily because
he was good. He never judged you no matter what you did or made you feel bad and always listened, always spared time for anyone. Since then our group barely sees each other... I don't think we've even
admitted that to ourselves. That was to start my downfall of the most hell year I've ever faced.

To follow it up, reports were given to an officer about me neglecting my daugther's.
So, blindsided and quickly after i was kicked from my home to await further instructions of what is to come. I havent
seen my kids in almost 3 months now due to hearings being pushed back due to around holidays and schedules not matching up.

I got to see my baby born and the few days after that, but since November 3rd i haven't been able to see him due to waiting on a hearing of needing a improvement period or not.
I haven't been able to help my wife or take care of my newborn or help my girls
with difficulties with a new school.  I can never repay her for the support and
dedication she has giving me. During this 3 month long process, I also lost my job of 4 years. The first two years i worked as OS which basically means i get a 4 hour shift one week
and i cover any call offs. Meaning i get called in and have to dropped everything to get more hours. It was kinda my dream job so
i worked my ass off to prove i would do anything for this company. After 2 years of working OS i finally got part time to which i was
guaranted 20 hours. The last year i worked 34 to 40 hours a week because i know everything about my job, every department how to manage and lead, and still didnt recieve any full time benefits while working full time hours for a year.
I was even going to be offered a Team Leader position that was full time, until they reformed the company structure and the job no
longer existed.. Work was the only place i could go and get away from everything else, that i feel like a bit of me was still there.
Helping customers employees with my straight forward attitude brought respect from both i knew i deserved..

Even through all this...
Not being able to see my children. Not being able to sleep with my wife at night and wake up with her in the morning. Being homeless a few nights
before finally bearing shame and asking to move back in with my parents. Losing a pillar of a friend and the only job I've ever cared
about. Hearing from two friends in 3 months because I've been so depressed that i have stopped texting first.. I wasn't going to open up
to anyone or especially people i don't know. I wasn't going to ask anyone for help because i thought it was weak. Even through all this
i was going to continue the struggle and move forward as best to my ability. Then on November 29th my wife was driving with our baby, going to pick up the girls from thanksgiving that we all celebrated apart. She was rear ended at 70 MPH, air bags deployed and unconscious in the median of
interstate 70. The person who hit her nor anyone else for that matter, didnt stop their black Friday travels to check on her.. I broke down.
I'm here because I broke down and i cant buy a car for my wife to take the kids to school. I broke down because I feel like I
relied so much on her and she cant rely on me. I'm breaking down because the insurance company totals any car with airbags deployed so
they wont help her get a new car. I broke down because after years of trying to be responsible and build a credit for my family, They begged me
to move them away from a toxic situation to where i had to max my credit cards. I broke down to the point where i have no pride because i don't deserve to have it.

I've prayed which i haven't done since my preteens. I've begged for second chances in every scenario that has gone  unanswered. Im here asking anyone who got this far into my story for help, not for me but for the amazing wife who bends over backwards for me and everyone she cares about.
For my straight A daughters who still rock the good grades, and helping their mother after having to move, being bullied at new schools
and staying strong. And to my new baby who doesn't deserve anything negative in this life and just a honest chance. That's who i'm making this for.
I would do anything for the ones i love and everything in my power to make sure they have a better life that i ever had or currently going through because they deserve it.

So please, anything helps them in every way imaginable and  I thank everyone who would support them in these rough times and for taking time out of your day to read our story. Even if you cant donate, sharing this anyone possible could have great effects to get this story heard.

I'am honestly grateful for any support