An AIBP MEMBER in CRISIS

Friends, a member is in severe crisis and needs our help. I hope you’ll read on and find it in your heart to help us raise emergency funds to sustain her a bit. She’s feeling hopeless and shameful ... and reached out for help because she considered ending her life this week. 

Things are not what they appear. She’s been homeless for 4 months living with her child in her car. Who the person is way less important than what she’s experiencing. She’s been a longtime member, sat by us in retreats, and has hid behind a facade of pain and shame. 

Please consider what good karma you can release through donations and help this woman get out of crisis.  

PLEASE READ and Consider donating to help sustain this person. 

Here’s her cry for help : 

“How do I get this bullshit out of my head.... I've literally lost everything. My family, my business...my reason for even trying.... Ive been fighting to tell myself it will get better but it hasn't....

Christmas day last year I lost my family because my son who'll be 13 Thursday, attempted to stab his sister in the chest with a butcher knife because "she made him mad"

I have gone through literally EVERY AVENUE I CAN FIND to get him help or detained somewhere... Of course my fiance didn't want him anywhere around because hes told his Therapist hes had thoughts of murdering us... stabbing us to death(short version) and neither one of us could take the chance of him doing something to my daughter or my youngest...

So I left my house of 8 years, my spouse who loved me more than anything, left my 3 yr old there because I couldn't risk him trying to hurt him and then me doing something to him I could never take back....

I sent my daughter to live in Dallas with my mom so she would be safe!! I got an apartment for us and had deadbolts put on my bedroom door incase he tried to kill me while I was asleep....

was there maybe 4 months and he set fire to multiple vacant units and sent 2 elderly people to the hospital because we couldn't get them out in time ( I'm a former combat medic and paramedic) and he has ABSOLUTELY NO REMORSE..said " I don't know why everyone's making a big deal, they didn't die"....

I took all the money I had which included business funds that clients had paid for product (which I know was completely fucking stupid on my part but it's all I had) to pay for them to repair the elderly couples apartment and cover a month they had to pay to be in another one.

They of course evicted us and charged him with a class a felony (the same as first degree murder) and because we then had to sleep in my car for months because the only money I had was from selling plasma...

I lost my beautiful studio that I worked SOOO hard for and poured my blood sweat and tears into... I'm getting sued by 4 different clients because I essentially stole their money because I haven't been able to recover it to place their album orders....

Last month I got offered to stay with a friend I've been talking to for a few months but he's damn sure not in any position to help other than a roof so I obviously took it because it beats the hell out of "sleeping" in my car with a 12 yr old because I'm up all night holding my gun praying someone doesn't try to rob me or steal my car....

Well then I walk in the bathroom after getting in a huge blow up because he stole 100 dollars from this guy's wallet (which he had in his pocket still) to find him hanging from the towel rack with a metal chain and his neck bleeding saying he was gonna kill himself....

I take him to the hospital and call his Therapist and PO. They admit him to a mental health hospital for 3 weeks which wasn't covered because I have no insurance....so I pawned all my lenses and both cameras to pay for part of the cost so they'd actually keep him....

I found out today if I don't come up with 300 by the end of the work my car is getting repossessed... My ex is in no way shape or form going to take us back with him in the picture....

I can't seem to find my way out of this...”