Aamina & Jamie IVF Journey, Help us start a family

There’s no easy way to talk about this topic, nobody really shares because it’s just super personal and painful. I was nervous to post about it and made me uncomfortable. We are both really vulnerable and we feel embarrassed to ask for money like this, but we felt that there was no other option. Many of you know/heard Jamie and I lost our son. He was 38 weeks, ready to come into this world. My life feels incomplete like were not where we are suppose to be. We’re suppose to be parents. We planned so many things, we dreamed about an entire future. I lost my faith for a really long time. We both kept saying how could God let us go through the 9 months and RIGHT when our baby is getting ready to be born take him away? Why just not let me get pregnant in the first place? Why put us through all this.  There’s no way life could be any more cruel, but little did I know it gets worse.

There’s no obvious reason as of yet, but I haven’t been able to get pregnant after a really long time of trying. Im literally heartbroken and life has been extremely hard everyday because it’s all I think about.  We want to at least get the process of other options started. (IUI,  IVF , Freeze my eggs) anything that can help us. The procedure I think we will end up doing is IVF which stands for in-vitro fertilization (for those who are not familiar and want to look it up). We both want a family more than anything in the world. The worst thing that could happen to someone is to lose a child and after we lost Jackson people kept telling me “at least you can get pregnant again” “don’t worry you’ll have so many more children” and (while that still didnt make me feel any better) now I’m not even getting pregnant and doctors can’t give me a proper diagnosis or figure out why so far.  We don’t want to give up, and the longer I wait the harder this will become. It’s very costly to do all the things we need to, the testing, the procedures, the medicines, the appointments, seeing a fertility specialist in general.  Only one round of IVF would be around 10,000. Or one cycle to freeze my eggs is anywhere from 6,000 to 10,000.  
This is so hard for us in every way possible. Jamie and I don’t like to ask for help like this we try to always take care of our own problems but this one was something we really couldn’t do alone. We would be extremely grateful for any help from our family and friends anyone that is able. You would be helping us to have a child which is the greatest gift anyone can receive. Words can’t even explain how thankful we would be❤️