Let's give Marty a helping handFund

 This is a little tough for me to deal with right now. I never thought my life would turn out like this. I never thought I would be homeless and crippled. I wasn't expecting to be a millionaire, but I was hoping to be able to work for a living some how. to make a difference in the world is all I have ever wanted to do. To help kids that, like myself had a rough childhood and just need a hand to get some traction in life.

When I was younger and playing basketball, or even younger and walking the streets of my home town at 3am. I never thought I would lose the ability to walk. Hell I was a world class athlete. Some people may not think so, butI played tennis, volleyball, ran track and played basketball in high school. I was a world class swimmer when I was in my early teens. I look back on all of that and then playing basketball at the top levels in the world. I would trade it all right now for a healthy set of legs and no hypotension, and no stroke in my right eye, and no seasonal assma and no start of the losing of my hands and arms. All I want is to be able to stand up from my wheelchair and stretch my arms to the sky without the fear of falling. I would love to be able to roll over in bed just once while I am sleeping and curl my legs up like I use to sleep.

But none of that is going to happen ever again for me. I am a disabled person now. I am unable to hold a job and I desperately want to work. My drugs have dampened my brain and the ability for me to be me. The me that is proud that on record I am smarter than Albert Einstein. But with all these drugs I have to take now sometimes I am barely smarter than my 9 year old twin. 

Honestly my friends, I just need some help. My life expectency is not long term. I really am fighting like hell to see my kids graduate from high school and maybe with some really hard work see one or both graduate from college. Jenn knows all this has stuck by me every step of the way. She has given reason to try to live longer, her and my kids.

basicallt I just want to get back to even.  I want to find a place to live, where Jenn, myself and our kids can grow. Right now all this moving from hotel to hotel is putting a huge stress on our relationship. We try and try but it is pulling us apart very slowly.

Right now I am in desperate  need of clothes. I actually only own 4 pairs of shorts, 4 pairs of underwear all with holes in them, 3 decent pairs of socks by decent I mean they only have tiny holes, and I have one pair of long pants that has a hole in them too. I do have plenty of T-shirts, most with holes somewhere. I also need a new pair of shoes. The ones I have only have half a sole left on each shoe.