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I am at a really desperate state, and I've been ashamed to put it out there in such a loud fashion like this, but as the days go by, the time on the clock keeps getting shorter. When life slowly deteriorates, you start to question if you did everything possible that you could and it really is scary knowing that you could die at any given moment.
I've been on dialysis going on 9 years now. 4 arteries makes dialysis possible and keeps me alive. 3 out of the 4 arteries has failed and is no longer able to do dialysis from. The 4th artery that's currently being used is having trouble during dialysis and sometimes wont stop bleeding for hours. Im currently scheduled for 2 surgeries in mid November in hopes of repairing the access port.
With the 4th artery being in jepordy, if it just so happens to fail as the other 3 it will leave me with no way to get my blood cleaned thru dialysis which is essentially keeping me alive. I haven't been more afraid in my life. I look at my kids, and emotions overwhelm me thinking I probably won't be able to see my kids graduate if I don't get this transplant.
I've tried fundraising, and reaching out to many different people, sharing my story in hopes of spreading the awareness and severity of my condition. I'm not dealing with a simple cold, or flu. This is a life threatning situation and a literal fight against time.
This is serious, and I'm embarrassed to put it out there like this, but each day that goes by, desperation gets deeper.
Dont mistake this as a sad story, It's not pity that I'm looking for. I just want to be able to be around and watch my kids grow into beautiful young women. A lot of people that know me don't even know my situation because I rarely bring it up. But I've realized that being quiet isn't getting me anywhere but to an early grave.
All I'm asking is to help share my story in hopes to spare my life. If not for me, please consider the fact that I'm a father of 4 beautiful girls. My kids don't deserve to be without their father.
I'm not asking for you to wave a magic wand and make everything perfect, I'm just hoping that somehow, somewhere, somebody with a heart will hear my story and hopefully be in the position to help get this transplant that is much needed.
Like I've repeated, I'M DESPERATE. I'm not one to sing a sad song for attention, but desperate times calls for desperate measures. I don't have much time left on my side, and unfortunately I don't have the money to make this transplant possible. I wouldn't be asking for help if my life wasn't on the line.
DONT THINK OF THIS AS JUST ANOTHER STORY, THINK OF ME AS ANOTHER HUMAN BEING, SOMEBODY'S FATHER, GRANDSON, SON, A BROTHER, AN UNCLE, NEPHEW, A FRIEND, AND TO SOME, I'M JUST A STRANGER. BUT I AM A LIVING SOUL THAT CAN BE SAVED WITH THE HELP OF OTHERS.
I'm dying slowly inside, but I'm not dead yet! What would you do if your life was on the line and it was out of your control? The only way I'm able to make it out alive is with the help and support of others.
I can't do this alone. Any help is better than no help.
Saving my life is not something that would be extremely valuable to me, but it would mean a whole lot to my daughters as well.
I will try to keep this page updated as much as possible.
It's not a, "pity train. . " It's a, "save my life campaign."
Thank you for taking the time to read my story. Feel free to ask subject related questions :)
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