Kelli Mathis

My name is Kelli and  I am 33  years old.  I am a mother of11 year old girl, 5 year od girl and 4 year old twins( boy and girl). I love them to pieces.  They are my world.  I have also been married happily for 6 years,

About four weeks ago, I started to have trouble with my vision. I was seeing double.  I patched up my eye and continued on with my life.After two weeks of no improvement I made a appointment to see a Neuro-Opthalmologist.  We thought it was Myasthenia Gravis.  So I was fitted for prisms on both eye glass lens.  He also ordered a Brain MRI AND MRA. The results showed some lesions and inflammation on my brain.  I was admitted in the hospital to receive IV steroid from August 28, 2014 and September 3, 2014,  The  double vison never got better.

While I was in the hospital, I developed a new symptom.Slowness in my left side! Everyone said it was from being in the hospital and not doing anything. And by me getting back to my normal routine would help,  It dd not.  I was diagnosed with Lupus 10 years ago, so I followed up with my Rheumatologist.  He ordered  another brain Mri to see if there was any changes.  There was.  New lesions popped up.  That day is when I decided it was time to take a medical leave from work.  Something that has been second nature for 13 years was now so hard to do.  That was devastating.  i was told I needed to see a Neurologist He said it could be MS or CNS Vasculitis and ordered a cerebral Angiogram.  Not a fun test. I was back at the hopital for that.  My blood vessels are normal,No stroke for me.

So it is probably MS.  No one knows for Sure.I follow up with the Neurologist September 24th.

I am Scared!

MY mom died when I was 13 and I do not want my children to go through that.  I love my chilren more than anything and the thought of not seeing them grow up scares the death out of me.

So, I am asking for help.  I really hate doing this  I have placed such a financial strain on my family.  I can't do this alone,  I want to know what is wrong with me.  I don't like not feeling lke myself. I HATE the fact, there are things I just can't do.  Moms are supposed to be able to do it all.

Medical bills are starting to come in.  My husband IS trying but one paycheck is not enough.  I just don't know what to do, we were okay with two paychecks, when I was working.I barely can
afford basic necessities.  

All your thoughts, prayers, and support are needed at this difficult time. They are welcomed and appreciated.  I am a strong person and I will pull through.  I refuse to give up.  What scares me, is my children and how they are coping with all of this,  They are watching their Mommy fall apart right in front of them.  I keep losing weight(50 pounds since Febuary), my voice i slurred, my left side is slow, and my walking is unsteady.

Pease help me get to the bttom this.  I just want to be normal again. i want my life back.  i want my children's normalcy back.
PLease please pLease help.

Thank You!