Please help me move home

I’m still conflicted on doing this and it does not feel good to be asking for money but I’m out of options and something has to change.  Some may know others may not that my mom Sheila has had a year from hell starting in October 2017. After surgery to remove it, she was diagnosed with stage 2 pancreatic cancer. She followed up with chemotherapy both oral and intravenous for 6 months, January to June 2018. As if that wasn’t already enough, shortly following the end of chemo she became confused, lethargic, and did nothing but sleep. Turns out chemotherapy gave her acute liver failure which resulted in more hospitalizations, her going unresponsive and in the ICU, and eventually more treatment, and now possibly permanent liver damage. While she was in the hospital most recently, she was also diagnosed as a diabetic.  She was discharged home but again was hospitalized just days ago for dangerously low potassium level and other out of normal bloodwork. 

With diagnoses that never seem to stop, medications that keep increasing, appointments every other day, adjusting to a new strict diet, and still coping with the fact that she got cancer, my mom is overwhelmed to say the very least.  She doesn’t know which way to turn and it feels as though she is in the hospital every other week. 

I have done everything in my power to be supportive through the last year while working, going to school, and living and working with a young man with autism full time.  Although I’ve tried to avoid this, I believe it’s in my best interest, my moms, and our family as a whole for me to move back home. I’m asking for help  with this because moving home would require resources I don’t have and a period of unemployment. With my mom being out of work for a year, our family is already struggling financially. 

Throughout everything I ever never lost hope that my mom can be healthy and strong again. For that to happen she needs to avoid being readmitted to the hospital.  Her life has taken a route that no one saw coming but what I’m learning to accept is that life owes you nothing. 

My goal in asking for help moving back home is that it’ll give me the opportunity to be more of a presence for her and my brother Sam who needs consistent structure and guidance related to school. It’ll give me the opportunity to focus on my family while trying to complete graduate school and a part time internship. I have come to the decision that I am taking care of too many people when I want my focus to be being home with my family.  Unfortunately, life doesn’t stop, responsibilites don’t stop, and bills don’t care about your personal problems. 

Again, it makes me a little uncomfortable to be asking for this kind of help, but I know if I’m able to return home and be with my faminly more consistently,  my mom will benefit and have a better chance at getting healthy,  and my family as a whole will benefit. I’m sorry if this upsets anyone or gives anyone a negative taste in their mouth about me.  My mom encouraged me not to move, and I’m sure she feels guilty, but this isn’t just for her, it’s for me and my brother as well. 

Thank you for any kind of support!