After being laid off from work, I was forced to realize that without the child care covid took away, I had to do things differently. One of the things I have had to admit after hitting my knees and praying about it was that if I want to be able to provide for my family long term, I have to actually be able to get up when I get done praying! I have turned down the surgery a couple times in the past, but the pain has become too much to keep ignoring. I feel like the Lord said it was time to humble myself and ask for help to get through the process so that I will be capable of working down the road both for my girls and for Him. It hurts as much as my knee to have to say I need the help, but if I don't ask I don't think I'll make it. Even if the only help I get is just having people keep me in their prayers and pass the request along...it is more than I could have done alone!