Our beautiful Isla Mae was born sleeping on the 23rd October 2016. Due to a silent complete placental abruption. The whole pregnancy had been fine with no issues at all. The morning we lost her I felt her kick. I will always wonder if it was her way of telling me something was wrong or if she was telling me goodbye. I thought I was having contractions after having 3 babies before. Me and my husband went to the hospital to be told "I'm sorry there is no heartbeat" those words will haunt me forever. I had to give birth to Isla naturally. I was distruat knowing that when she was born the room would be filled with silence and not that of a crying baby. Things got worse as my clotting factors were below 10%. Next thing the crash team were called to the room where the defibrillator pads were placed on me. I was then rushed to theatre for an emergency c section. I lost 80% blood and had to have a transfusion. I was told a few days later that I almost died, not that it mattered to me at the time. I was taken to icu and was sedated for 24hrs. I didn't meet my baby girl until the next evening. At first I couldn't bare to hold her, I cried so much knowing she was still, silent that she would never cry. But instinct took over and we had our first cuddle. I felt my heart break. She was perfect. She weighed 5lb 13oz. The next few months past by in a haze. I couldn't function and my husband had to take time off work to look after our other 3 children. Slowly I started to live a new kind of normal. I suffer with mental health problems and I was in a very dark place. Isla will be 2 on the 23rd October and we still haven't got her a beautiful headstone. This is the very last thing we can do for our sleeping Angel. They cost so so much it's money we just don't have. To see her forever bed without a headstone breaks me. Graeme has currently been off of work for the past 3 months as my mental health spiralled out of control. If you could find it in your hearts to donate and share for me it would mean the world. A beautiful headstone for our beautiful Isla. Thank you so much.