Help me and my kids

So... i’m a strong believer in cleaning up your own mess and normally I would never ask strangers for help in cleaning mine, but when my children are getting affected, there’s nothing I wouldn’t do to try and fix it, so I’m desperate! I’m a 35 year old mother of four kids in the ages between 2 weeks and 16 years! I’ve been fighting depression and anxiety as long as I can remember and most of the time it’s manageable, but sometimes it overwhelms me. Leaving me incapable of functioning like I should, closing myself off from the world, just lying in bed crying or sleeping most of the time! Thankfully my ex is an understanding person, helping me with the kids and other things when I’m at my lowest, but this he cannot help me with, though I know he would if he could!Last summer I was really down under, incapable of working and mostly this would be fine, because we have a great health care system here in Sweden, when it works... unfortunately, this time it didn’t! Leaving me without money for about 3 months! My family and friends helped me with the necessities like food and stuff, lending me money, but my bills I could not pay! So the past 7-8 months I’ve been trying to pay off my debts, but paying off one bill, forces me to skip another, making the montain of debt unclimbable and growing uncontrolably! It feels like I’m stuck in a circle of financial doom, and everything is falling apart! And now, the last couple of months the debt collector takes about half my paycheck, making me unable to pay most of my current bills, making the mountain of debt grow even more and I’m using what’s left bying food for my kids, and paying off money I borrow from friends/family just to get by! Before all this I didn’t have much, but I managed, but now... I’m sinking deeper each month, unable to save myself! I lost my apartment (naturally) because I couldn’t pay my rent, so now I’m sleeping on the couch at my ex:s place, trying to find a new place to live, but That’s kind of hard when you’re blacklisted for not paying rent and still owing the money!But what made me turn to this page, the last drop making me swallow my pride and ask people I don’t know for help is that my account is empty, I don’t have any idea how I’m going to feed my kids until the end of the month, and one of my kids has a birthday coming up and I can’t buy him a birthday present or bake him a cake and it breaks my heart seeing my kids suffer because of my illness.It doesn’t take a long time for debt to build up, but it takes forever to try and pay it off!So, If you finished reading all of this, this is a piece of my story, and I would be forever grateful of any help I could get! Sincerely, Ester Julia