Help Me Save My Daughter

My name is Destiny. I am trying to raise money to hire an attorney and get custody of my daughter. My daughters name is Divinity. She is 15 years old and I believe that she is in danger. Her father moved to California when she was young after him and I had split. He was gone for 8 months and then came back to Utah and asked to take our daughter to dinner and a movie. I felt it was important for my daughter to have her father in her life. Her father didn’t take her the dinner though, he kidnapped her. I went to the police station and they told me “it’s not kidnapping because we’re married”. He fell off the face of the earth after that and I had no way to find her. Until 6 months later when our daughter became a legal resident of California. He then magically reappeared back into Utah. He blackmailed me into signing the papers at his attorneys office in salt lake and said “your daughter is in the next room, if you want to see her, sign”. I was young, devastated and mourning the loss of my daughter for 6 torturous months and on top of that I was I was really naïve. I would have done anything to hold my baby, and feel her little arms around me. So I signed the papers and that’s when my life and my daughters life changed forever. Fast forward many many years later and this man continues to lie, manipulate and control our daughter using her as an innocent pawn just to hurt me. This man has shown that he is capable of some pretty horrible things and honestly has scared the crap out of me with how close he has gotten to ruining my life. He has absolutely no boundaries, empathy or fear. He will do and say anything to paint me in a horrible light to our daughter. Because of this she no longer speaks to me. The last time my daughter was with me she told me that she feels like her dad is never happy with her but when she tells him that she hates me then it makes him happy and he is proud of her. I truly believe in my heart that my daughter is just trying to survive in a narcissistic world. My son recently was allowed to talk to his sister (her dad had not allowed it for quite awhile) This took days of conversations between my son, who is 17, and her dad before he would allow them to talk. There was strict rules on what can and cannot be said during their conversations. If the rules are not followed then they would not be allowed to talk again. He also told my son that the reason My daughter has not been in contact with us is because there is a protective order against me by CPS and that I am not allowed to have any contact with her at all. This is a complete lie. No such order has ever been put in place. He is keeping her isolated, confused, manipulated and medicated to keep control of her. She is not allowed to talk to her brother without her dads supervision the entire time. She is not allowed to say anything that pertains to her life there. This is just a tip of the iceberg from the hell my life has been since signing those papers 10 years ago. I am a great mom and deserve to have my daughter in my life. I was pushed out of her life by his lies and his control. The reason I am reaching out is because enough is enough. I could hear her crying out for help when she first talked to my son. She didn’t come right out and say anything specifically. But she did say that she is confused, depressed and recently tried to commit suicide and is now on meds. The conversation was heartbreaking. She is honestly so confused and lost. When she started to lose control and cry her dad made her get off the phone. 15 minutes later she called back and acted like nothing had happened and was totally fine and happy. She is being coached and controlled.Her head is shaved on one side, her hair is dyed, her nose is pierced and she uses horrible profanity. These are all signs to me that she is acting out... she is trying to find her own identity and gain some kind of control or attention. This is not my daughter... she is sweet, kind and loving and now she is emotional, afraid to say anything and constantly warns her brother that her dad is present during conversations. I have also learned that they live on a house boat in California. All of these things concern me and scare the hell out of me. But my biggest concern is hearing the fear in her voice, the attempted suicide, the meds, the control. Him not allowing her to have contact with the outside world or her family or even her only brother. Please, I am begging everyone... even 1$ will help me get that much closer. I have to fight for custody in California but I live in Utah. This will be expensive and difficult but I have to do something. Anything I can. Please, I am begging!! Help me save my daughter before she does anything to harm herself again. I want my baby back. Please help me get her away from him. I have no idea how much this will cost. I know I will need a retainer fee. I know that I will have to fight this in an entirely different state. That means travel and missed time from work. And he is not going to make this an easy battle. I never wanted this. I wanted to co-parent and raise my daughter right. But as the years have gone on, her dad has gotten so much worse and is pulling her further and further away. So sadfully it has came to this but I have to do what is best for my daughter and save her. Thank you so much for any help you can give me.